Fears and Future
I've been reading Scripture and praying a lot the past couple days since Andy asked me if I thought I was ready to hear more about his past. Before then I think I always thought I was like I had some kind of right to know everything and I was curious, but now I honestly don't know if I really want to know so badly. It just scares me and I can't really define why I guess just cause he talks SO SERIOUSLY about it and I can see how much it hurts him. Perhaps it's just a scary thing to be so close to someone that you have the power to break his/her heart. One thing I do know: God has certainly shown me that no matter what it is or how I feel about it I will forgive and continue to love. I think all the portions of Ephesians that I've memorized over the years are lingering in my mind and I read the whole book again this morning.
I don't know why but some things in life just scare me the most. Like last night I got an email to set up a skype interview for an internship in Africa (and possibly the Caribbean). I'm excited and hopeful, but I'm nervous too. I don't know what God's plans are for my life in the next few years, but I know it will be good. And because of that I can have faith in God and trust him when I am uncertain.
I am very glad to be going home for the week. I can't wait to catch up with friends and family and I want to be able to talk about this kind of stuff and get advice or at least reassurance. I have to say that I never expected to be stretched so much all at once, but it's so good.
I don't know why but some things in life just scare me the most. Like last night I got an email to set up a skype interview for an internship in Africa (and possibly the Caribbean). I'm excited and hopeful, but I'm nervous too. I don't know what God's plans are for my life in the next few years, but I know it will be good. And because of that I can have faith in God and trust him when I am uncertain.
I am very glad to be going home for the week. I can't wait to catch up with friends and family and I want to be able to talk about this kind of stuff and get advice or at least reassurance. I have to say that I never expected to be stretched so much all at once, but it's so good.