Inspired

Feb 23, 2010 22:21

I have been deeply inspired today. Emily S. sent me a link to a blog that she's reading about a girl who left everything, even the love of her life, to follow God to Africa and adopt 12 girls by herself. I am just in awe of this woman. I don't know how old she is (she seems pretty young in the pictures), but she is somehow managing to take care of these girls and obey God in the hardest areas of life. I have often wondered if God will call me to do something like that or if I really want to do something like that. I suppose deep down I do, but the obvious hesitations remain at the moment: how will I support myself (let alone children if I adopt), I would miss my family and friends terribly, I don't know where I would go or even what I would do other than represent Christ. *Sigh*
As I was reading something ahead of time for one of my classes I was reminded of the insane amount of free choice we have, particularly in America, today. The number of options paralyzes us and don't know what we want let alone what we should do. I often feel the weight of this reality and I wonder why it is so. "God, give me fewer choices so I can be wiser and make the most of every opportunity."
"Lord, again I am stuck between two worlds. I desire to give up my freedom in order to obey, but then the American in me struggles to make its voice heard. 'Success!' it cries, 'Don't give up these dreams!' Lord, what do I do? You know my heart and my struggles within. Help me to overcome my doubt and fear and follow where you lead and listen to your gentlest whispers. I know not what is best for me or for your kingdom. Show me what is, step by step. I ask for ever increasing wisdom to live in this world of confusion and temptation. Keep me humble and dependent on you alone. I am lost in a world that is screaming, 'We want freedom to do as we please, anything and everything even to excess!', but alas I am not of this world! I am yours to command. I worship you my God and King. Lord, if need be, shout at me so I may hear you above the noise! I long for your voice, for your touch, your life! Precious Jesus hold me in your arms of love till your face is all I see. I pray all these things in the name of Jesus Christ the risen Lord. Amen."

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