post mortem options and dead babies

[rayven_phatonis]

Through my life I have considered many options for what to have done with my corpse when I am gone. I have always had a fascination with plastination, but I didn't know I could actually donate my body specifically for this purpose. It's definatly an option worth thinking over. The idea of being both a scientific and artistic exhibit fulfills my

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[lorisaza]

Plain and simple! I like your work!

[jeustr]

Baby I miss you so fucking much. I can't stand being without you. It should be me dead and not beautiful you. I'm the monster, the fuck up, the thing that broke us down. I love you so much, I feel like I can't breathe. I am nothing without you. I would give anything, anything to have you back. I still am in denial; how sad is that? Everyday, I think of new ways you might have slipped away, been spirited away, hell just burned your bridges really fucking thoroughly just to get me out of your life even because I suck so much. You're in FBI protection relocation, you've made such good friends with mom you've concocted this elaborate story that everyone is in on but me to keep me from bothering you anymore. God how could you have been friends with my mom behind my back this whole time? Were you the one with the fourth-grade education comment all along? I'm devastated you didn't seem to tell anyone how much we'd come back together. Or at least I thought we had? You said you were still in love with me, was that not true? Or was it more of

[jeustr]

You might have warned me you were addicted to them once you realized so maybe I could have been more careful in taking them so I wouldn't get addicted too. Luckily I didn't. They fluctuated in how they worked on me so I'd go off them and forget about them for long stretches. So I guess I missed that particular addiction. Baby, I need you like air, like the sun, like your rainbow of shadows in this world that blinds me. I dont want to live without you and there isn't even anyone I can talk to about it because you're the ONLY one I've talked to for years. And that was selfish of me too I guess. Just a fount of me, me, me when I didn't even realize how little of you was coming through the other side. I wouldn't have flirted with you so much if I'd known you were dating someone. You kept so much from me to the point it's like a knife in the gut. Finding out there was this whole other you after you were gone, realizing I didn't mean as much to you as I'd led myself to vainly, and selfishly believe. But the night before you said you'd never

[jeustr]

I miss you. My world is empty without you. You were the best thing that ever happened to me, along with having Aiden. I hope you're at peace. I hope you feel my love, part of the everything again. I'm better now baby. I would have made you so happy if you'd just come home.
You'd be so proud of Aiden. With his GED, his scholarship to electrical school, and his job. He's working so hard and really sticking to it even though it's super hard and wickedly uncomfortable. You'd be so proud baby. I don't know how to live without you. I don't want to. I love you more than salt.

Come back to me. I need you.