not quite gethsemane
So this is the part where too much waiting and thinking is incredibly sucky.
I've been trying to make myself not cry/stop crying for about an hour. But crying makes the nausea be less. So I keep crying. Because I'm going to college the day after tomorrow and it's only an hour away from home but I'm still scared shitless and I want the waiting part to be over but I don't want to leave home earlier because I don't want to miss a minute of being with Mom & Dad until move-in day. Stress. Tearing. Me. Apart.
I should watch a really cathartic movie. Cry buckets, then sleep, then everything will be better.
Except I still have to go to the high school tomorrow to finish my yearbook pages.
Sucks to be me.
-rave
ETA: Little bit of squee to leaven the extreme meh-ness that is now me -- went to see Superman Returns tonight with Llama and while I won't get into the plot-vs.-physics argument now (maybe I'll review later; in short, I liked it), I was just turning to leave when a name in the cast caught my eye: Raelee Hill! *huggles her* I love it when I know my Farscape babies are still safely employed. It's the same irrational pride I felt when Wayne Pygram showed up on LOST. ^_^.
I've been trying to make myself not cry/stop crying for about an hour. But crying makes the nausea be less. So I keep crying. Because I'm going to college the day after tomorrow and it's only an hour away from home but I'm still scared shitless and I want the waiting part to be over but I don't want to leave home earlier because I don't want to miss a minute of being with Mom & Dad until move-in day. Stress. Tearing. Me. Apart.
I should watch a really cathartic movie. Cry buckets, then sleep, then everything will be better.
Except I still have to go to the high school tomorrow to finish my yearbook pages.
Sucks to be me.
-rave
ETA: Little bit of squee to leaven the extreme meh-ness that is now me -- went to see Superman Returns tonight with Llama and while I won't get into the plot-vs.-physics argument now (maybe I'll review later; in short, I liked it), I was just turning to leave when a name in the cast caught my eye: Raelee Hill! *huggles her* I love it when I know my Farscape babies are still safely employed. It's the same irrational pride I felt when Wayne Pygram showed up on LOST. ^_^.