Happy Turkey Day
To all that actually read this shit. Happy Thanksgiving. I hate holidays. I'm always alone or an outsider. But today I went to Chad's house and meet an entire family that was very fun and laid back. And most importantly they didn't care that I was an outsider and that I am different and out spoken. I loved every minute of hagging out with them. Plus I got to meet Chapa who is a dj, really good friends with my favorite local dj "Ramsey". That alone makes me glad I went. Maybe I'll finally get his cd. Anyway, Chad has had a crush on me for sometime now, I know this because he kept telling me. Members of his family apparently know about me from him, you know the "so you're raven". So yeah, good guy all around great person...but I don't feel anything but friendship with him. Maybe if I gave him a chance and spend time with him things will change. Atleast I know I won't have the problem with his family...they actually like me. I don't want to force myself to like someone but if that is the only way to do this then ... how else can I get over the past. Anyone with any opinions is welcome to give me some. I need input.