Finding some happiness....
It is interesting how putting yourself in a situation makes those thoughts and feelings be put in the back of your mind. So finally, I am receiving my green card and I have filled paper work for financial aid. Called the college and it seems that for the Surgical Tech School is full for the next two years, unless someone drops out. So I'm going in this week to fill my paper work for the waiting list. If by chance no one drops out for the next or semester after then I'm also getting my paper work ready to go into the Air Force for Surgical Tech and those classes might be a while which gives me time to get ready. I have bought books to study and have actually been taking time to do so. I'm so nervous and exited. I want to be ready before I go in. I keep losing weight and am trying to gain some again. I look to small.
I am taking a vacation. An actually VACATION. I'm going to be in San Diego the last week of Feb to see my friends, Ro and Cosmo and others. Ro actually got me a hotel room for free and a truck to drive around for free. So all I need is spending money and airplane ticket. Woohoo!!! Finally I get to see the city I've wanted to see for YEARS. My house is looking better and better. Of course, I keep buying things like paintings and stupid shit I don't really need but hey I'm proud of my house. Finally getting the money to buy my new car and now that I've built some credit with my checking and savings account. But I'm thinking of getting another Cavi, mine has been so reliable for years that maybe it will be a good thing. Romance is non-existent but I'm actually happy about it. I need to focus on things I want. To bad I can't join the Peace Corps, but then I'm gunning for my citizenship so maybe in the next five years or so. Or I could just give up on that dream. Maybe not. I am also about to start taking dance classes and again and join theater. So wish me luck!
This is to all the people I call friends. Thanks so much for being there. I hope you realize how much I appreciate you and all you do for me. You are all my family and I am grateful to have so many wonderful people in my life. You keep pushing me forward and always support me in what I do. I am humbled by your faithfulness and love, and I need you all to know that I don't take any of you for granted and miss you all so very much. I want you all to have someone you can be proud of as a human being and as a friend, so for you I will strive to become a great person that you all can be proud of. If you need a shoulder, I'll hold you up while you vomit your guts out from to much drinking and more than likely join you in the process because I'll be there with you. If you need to talk I'll be a ear and not judge you for anything you do, as you all have been kind for not judging me. Thank you so much for being my friends. And to the ones who hate me, I'm sorry but I can't hate you for at some point or another you have given me wonderful memories, and that is enough for me to still love you as a person and past friend. So my wishes go you all of you for great joy and happiness. With all my heart.
I know corny uh... but true.
I am taking a vacation. An actually VACATION. I'm going to be in San Diego the last week of Feb to see my friends, Ro and Cosmo and others. Ro actually got me a hotel room for free and a truck to drive around for free. So all I need is spending money and airplane ticket. Woohoo!!! Finally I get to see the city I've wanted to see for YEARS. My house is looking better and better. Of course, I keep buying things like paintings and stupid shit I don't really need but hey I'm proud of my house. Finally getting the money to buy my new car and now that I've built some credit with my checking and savings account. But I'm thinking of getting another Cavi, mine has been so reliable for years that maybe it will be a good thing. Romance is non-existent but I'm actually happy about it. I need to focus on things I want. To bad I can't join the Peace Corps, but then I'm gunning for my citizenship so maybe in the next five years or so. Or I could just give up on that dream. Maybe not. I am also about to start taking dance classes and again and join theater. So wish me luck!
This is to all the people I call friends. Thanks so much for being there. I hope you realize how much I appreciate you and all you do for me. You are all my family and I am grateful to have so many wonderful people in my life. You keep pushing me forward and always support me in what I do. I am humbled by your faithfulness and love, and I need you all to know that I don't take any of you for granted and miss you all so very much. I want you all to have someone you can be proud of as a human being and as a friend, so for you I will strive to become a great person that you all can be proud of. If you need a shoulder, I'll hold you up while you vomit your guts out from to much drinking and more than likely join you in the process because I'll be there with you. If you need to talk I'll be a ear and not judge you for anything you do, as you all have been kind for not judging me. Thank you so much for being my friends. And to the ones who hate me, I'm sorry but I can't hate you for at some point or another you have given me wonderful memories, and that is enough for me to still love you as a person and past friend. So my wishes go you all of you for great joy and happiness. With all my heart.
I know corny uh... but true.