Sigh...

Feb 21, 2008 09:58

My mom called yesterday to let me know she had to go to the cancer center to get hydrated. I guess she had been puking most of the night and hadn't been able to keep down food or drink. They switched her meds, which helped her stop puking, but make her even more tired than she already was.

My parents started round the clock shifts at the house so that there's always someone with my mom. Friends of my parents have been "banging down the door" as my father says, asking to help in any way they can, and my parents have started to make use of them. My sister is now a part time employee, and spends time at home with my mom when people aren't there to cover shifts. We're really fortunate that the owners of her company knew my parents years ago. I'd imagine that most companies wouldn't allow their employees to switch their hours so easily, especially when you consider that she's only been there for a month. I called my dad last night to see if he wanted me to come over and sit with her, and he said they had more than enough people volunteering. As he put it, "it's overwhelming." But, he said that work is a good thing, and they will call if they really need me.

My mom called this morning while I was getting ready for work. Each time I see my family come up on caller ID, I get really nervous and scared. Nervous that I'm suddenly going to end up at the hospital. Scared that I'm not going to make it in time. I didn't check caller ID to see who called; I assumed it was an emergency because no one calls me before 9:00. I got really nervous when I heard my mom's voice, but calmed down once I heard her request. She just wanted me to come sit with her tomorrow during lunch. I called back when I got into work, I was quite surprised when my dad answered the phone, which sent me into a state of panic. I told him why I called and he asked if I could call back because hospice was at the house figuring out what they could do to help out my family. This is happening so fast. I'm not ready. Not ready at all.

mom, family, cancer

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