why hello there, livejournal. how i've missed you....
once again..
i'm feeling a whole mix of emotions right now.
i am currently extremely pissed..yet unbelievably sad..at the same time.
all i want to do is cry..but i can't.
i don't know why, but it's weird. it's such a weird feeling.
and only he can do it to me.
that guy that most of you know about..that i was involved with..just doesn't view things like i did.
i really liked him.
and i told him all this.
and i told him how all i have been thinking about lately is if he likes me as a friend..or as more than a friend.
now everything that we have done..makes it seem like he truly liked me.
i guess not.
because all he could say back to me was one, simple word.
"friends"
i pretty much wrote the guy a book explaining how i felt.
and that's all i got in return....
he has made me experience 2 new emotions, two emotions that i've never really ever felt towards someone before.
+the first being, me having true feelings for someone.
-wanting to see that person every minute of the day.
-he was like all i ever thought about.
-a simple text from him would make my day.
-a phone call from him would make me smile/glow.
-he was the first person i wanted to talk to when a new day began.
but w/e....
+and second, now i'm experiencing these feelings of pure hatred and complete sorrow.
-and it's kind of freaking me out!
i don't really know how to handle it [but by letting my feelings out to all of you, here on lj].
oh well.
i doubt anyone is even reading this.
i'm just putting this all out there because i heard that there were actually some people who were asking about me.
asking about what was wrong with me.
some people could tell something was up.
and this is it....
thanks for your concern and if you read all this.
much love.
♥Jamie