So There I Go Again....

[rapidhopeloss8]

[this is referring to last night]

....forgiving and forgetting..again. [more emphasis on the "forgetting" part]
why can't i ever just get over some[one]thing?
move on..
get them out of my life..
let everything go, like it meant nothing..
????

i just hate being mean..
that's just it -- i can't be mean..
even during the times that i should be mean.
i can never find it in me to actually stand my ground and put my foot down.
[well i can when i really need to]
but when it comes to this..
i usually end up regressing back to that point.

i don't know why i put myself through all this..
i'm[we're] not going anywhere..
nothing good is coming from this..
it's just there.
so yeah..
things are just blah.

just needed to get that out.
[in case anyone cared]
later..

♥Jamie