First day of summer. Yay for short term bed rest! Not.
So yay, school is out, and I'm stuck sitting around. If I move too much contractions start.
The MALE doctor that took one look at me, and said, "That's [nearly] impossible" because of my gestation (22.something) weeks. I thought it was braxton hicks, and it could have very well been. They just began to get VERY intense, they lasted three days... and all throughout the day... Tell me that is no reason to be concerned! Anyway, my point is the stupid doctor didn't seem to really care too much. He didn't explain to me anything that it could be, or any thing that could cause contractions like that. I had to practically bring up the fact that I shouldn't be on my feet so much (because that is what my mom said... so I asked about it) of course he basically rolled his eyes at me and wrote me a note for 3 days bed rest. But I don't want bed rest I want to be healthy, and able to work... So now I am pissed because I am not supposed to move but he gave me NO details about anything that could happen, any consequenses of moving or ANYTHING. He pretty much said, "Well, rest, and then call us." So I don't know exactly how this works, but if I am on my feet for a few minutes, I get pains... and I image if I stay up longer the contractions may come, so I have been on my fat ass ALL DAY LONG! Is my frusteration making any sense? I don't want to be pregnant. I want to fast forward 90 days, and have Aydin, and then be unpregnant, and a new mommy. Ugh, fantasies.
I'm also frusterated at my friend who doesn't understand what it means to be on bed rest, and basically called me lazy! What a brat, she doesn't care that it could be serious, it could GET serious if I don't take it easy... She's just an immature, moody, 17 year old who cares more about impressing some horney teenage boy, then caring for and spending time with a friend who would do the same for her!
Luckily I have Sean, he did my laundry, and spent time with me, and laughed with me. He is the best friend I've had for the past few years.
I'm also wondering if I took on WAY too heavy a load for school next year. New Market For Microsoft Office is a almost 3 hours class. And then for the first quarter of SPSCC I am taking one class that is about an hour long. But New market continues all year, and I am worried about the homework load when I take more classes at SPSCC. Yikes! I know I can handle it, I know it will work out just fine, but I am still over excited, and slightly worried.
I love Brandon.
As if I haven't said enough. I wonder if it is normal for your belly button to hurt about this time of the pregnancy??
Aydin is doing good I suppose, he is still swimmin and kickin his mommy all the time. So I guess he must be content. Nothing is painful.
I CAN NOT GET COMFORTABLE!
Welp, if anyone wants to visit me, I will be alone... In my apartment... Alone... DID I MENTION I AM ALL ALONE! Until 1 AM when Brandon gets home. Oh I am so proud of him for working so hard. He's a good guy.
I just want some water, and some strawberries, and something that I am craving but I have no clue what it is! :(
P FUCKING S. Did I mention that a friend of mine who was my best friend since we were about 5-6 doesn't make any effort to talk to me. I called her, she called back because she didn't know who it was calling her. THEN she said let me call you back on my house phone. That was over a day ago. What the hell. Why do I have friends treating me like shit.
Then my other friend fucks a druggie, and accidentally forgets her birthcontrol patch, and doesn't "like" condoms. And I use the word accidentally VERY lightly. She also, doesn't keep contact with me, I try... I hope these things change.
Now, I am done for the next few minutes.
The MALE doctor that took one look at me, and said, "That's [nearly] impossible" because of my gestation (22.something) weeks. I thought it was braxton hicks, and it could have very well been. They just began to get VERY intense, they lasted three days... and all throughout the day... Tell me that is no reason to be concerned! Anyway, my point is the stupid doctor didn't seem to really care too much. He didn't explain to me anything that it could be, or any thing that could cause contractions like that. I had to practically bring up the fact that I shouldn't be on my feet so much (because that is what my mom said... so I asked about it) of course he basically rolled his eyes at me and wrote me a note for 3 days bed rest. But I don't want bed rest I want to be healthy, and able to work... So now I am pissed because I am not supposed to move but he gave me NO details about anything that could happen, any consequenses of moving or ANYTHING. He pretty much said, "Well, rest, and then call us." So I don't know exactly how this works, but if I am on my feet for a few minutes, I get pains... and I image if I stay up longer the contractions may come, so I have been on my fat ass ALL DAY LONG! Is my frusteration making any sense? I don't want to be pregnant. I want to fast forward 90 days, and have Aydin, and then be unpregnant, and a new mommy. Ugh, fantasies.
I'm also frusterated at my friend who doesn't understand what it means to be on bed rest, and basically called me lazy! What a brat, she doesn't care that it could be serious, it could GET serious if I don't take it easy... She's just an immature, moody, 17 year old who cares more about impressing some horney teenage boy, then caring for and spending time with a friend who would do the same for her!
Luckily I have Sean, he did my laundry, and spent time with me, and laughed with me. He is the best friend I've had for the past few years.
I'm also wondering if I took on WAY too heavy a load for school next year. New Market For Microsoft Office is a almost 3 hours class. And then for the first quarter of SPSCC I am taking one class that is about an hour long. But New market continues all year, and I am worried about the homework load when I take more classes at SPSCC. Yikes! I know I can handle it, I know it will work out just fine, but I am still over excited, and slightly worried.
I love Brandon.
As if I haven't said enough. I wonder if it is normal for your belly button to hurt about this time of the pregnancy??
Aydin is doing good I suppose, he is still swimmin and kickin his mommy all the time. So I guess he must be content. Nothing is painful.
I CAN NOT GET COMFORTABLE!
Welp, if anyone wants to visit me, I will be alone... In my apartment... Alone... DID I MENTION I AM ALL ALONE! Until 1 AM when Brandon gets home. Oh I am so proud of him for working so hard. He's a good guy.
I just want some water, and some strawberries, and something that I am craving but I have no clue what it is! :(
P FUCKING S. Did I mention that a friend of mine who was my best friend since we were about 5-6 doesn't make any effort to talk to me. I called her, she called back because she didn't know who it was calling her. THEN she said let me call you back on my house phone. That was over a day ago. What the hell. Why do I have friends treating me like shit.
Then my other friend fucks a druggie, and accidentally forgets her birthcontrol patch, and doesn't "like" condoms. And I use the word accidentally VERY lightly. She also, doesn't keep contact with me, I try... I hope these things change.
Now, I am done for the next few minutes.