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ok,
ha i tried to upload some new pix so that i can change this age-old user photo. but it always says image is too big. sigh.a
anyhow, pharmaco's over today.
it was, surprisingly ok. ok cos it went better than i expected. and i'm glad i didn't burst out crying last night. cos iwas on the verge to. the insecurities are really killing.
i'm glad i didn't cos if i did, my eyes would have hurt, and i'd have gotten up with a much worse headache than i did today.
so i'm glad i didn't.
and well, i won't deny if im feeling unsure still, cos i'm unsure if u know, what i feel abt my paper is REAL, or is it a self-denial, self-illusional kinda ting.
but i know, waht's done is done and i can't change the outcome of the paper. i tink that if the entire weightage is based soley on today's paerp, ive a good chance of passing. but its the term grades that takes up like 40 % that is scary. again. i don't know if i'm comforting myself. so whatever. ehatever to pharmaco.
now its jus left with cofm, which is to take place on wed, at 9am. so well. and i hope, i can remember what i studied.
its frustrating that i'm not able to rememer u konw. ha but for crying out loud, i should stop being such a whiner. after all, to who is it not frustrating when they can't remember what they learn? yah precisely.
i hate this part of myself cos it makes me feel like i'm wallowing in selfpity.
and it makesme feel like i don't have control over myself,'
so, i'm jus going to try and revise tonight, and the entire day tmw. and hopfuly wed will go A-ok. but u know, there's this niggling doubt in me that makes me feel insecure and want to continue studying still after wed. jus in case i get called up for VIVA> see. see. see. this is annoying.cos it feels like i'm prep to fail.
oh well.
what can i say.
i jus have to keep the end in sight.end in sight end in sight.
dear ru and dear cousin, thank you for the nice encouraging posts to my previous posts. heh. makes me feel so loved.
and, well, i'm kinda looking forwad to the end of exams. cos this wouild be mean i can see show.
and in any case, ahaha i want to take reverse bungee.
ahhhhhh..
okie.
so study study study again.
hahaa.. can u see the stressed star. hahaha..
in a few days, hopefully it'll be gone :)
pray pray pray.
ha i tried to upload some new pix so that i can change this age-old user photo. but it always says image is too big. sigh.a
anyhow, pharmaco's over today.
it was, surprisingly ok. ok cos it went better than i expected. and i'm glad i didn't burst out crying last night. cos iwas on the verge to. the insecurities are really killing.
i'm glad i didn't cos if i did, my eyes would have hurt, and i'd have gotten up with a much worse headache than i did today.
so i'm glad i didn't.
and well, i won't deny if im feeling unsure still, cos i'm unsure if u know, what i feel abt my paper is REAL, or is it a self-denial, self-illusional kinda ting.
but i know, waht's done is done and i can't change the outcome of the paper. i tink that if the entire weightage is based soley on today's paerp, ive a good chance of passing. but its the term grades that takes up like 40 % that is scary. again. i don't know if i'm comforting myself. so whatever. ehatever to pharmaco.
now its jus left with cofm, which is to take place on wed, at 9am. so well. and i hope, i can remember what i studied.
its frustrating that i'm not able to rememer u konw. ha but for crying out loud, i should stop being such a whiner. after all, to who is it not frustrating when they can't remember what they learn? yah precisely.
i hate this part of myself cos it makes me feel like i'm wallowing in selfpity.
and it makesme feel like i don't have control over myself,'
so, i'm jus going to try and revise tonight, and the entire day tmw. and hopfuly wed will go A-ok. but u know, there's this niggling doubt in me that makes me feel insecure and want to continue studying still after wed. jus in case i get called up for VIVA> see. see. see. this is annoying.cos it feels like i'm prep to fail.
oh well.
what can i say.
i jus have to keep the end in sight.end in sight end in sight.
dear ru and dear cousin, thank you for the nice encouraging posts to my previous posts. heh. makes me feel so loved.
and, well, i'm kinda looking forwad to the end of exams. cos this wouild be mean i can see show.
and in any case, ahaha i want to take reverse bungee.
ahhhhhh..
okie.
so study study study again.
hahaa.. can u see the stressed star. hahaha..
in a few days, hopefully it'll be gone :)
pray pray pray.