Disappointment
yes. i'm disappointed.
very actually.
Why is it that when pple get attached, they tend to forget abt other things. ok maybe forget is the wrong word to use.
and maybe i'm jus being an idiot. being selfish being sick. being disgusting and being what other adjectives that i can't tink of. but, to sum it up, yesh, i feel neglected.
i ask myself. am i being upset cos i'm demanding the same kind of attn that You gave when you were not attached. or am i now jealous that i'm not getting as much attn as Your other half? or am i like expecting the same kind of attn that i give You, and frankly, to be fair to myself, No.
but with You, i feel forgotten. so many times. and each time i call, most times, i feel like i'm bothering You. and it was never like that before.
is it so hard to ask, " why was it horrid for you?" " Do you want to talk abt it?"
i'd have done that.
i'd have rushed all the way down from whereever i am jus to be wif you, when you're down. even if you're down for the slightest ting.
i'm not expecting you to do this kinda ting for me.i'm not expecting You to do the same kind of thing for me, i'm not expecting you to hold me with the same kind of cherish that i hold you.
and to You, i was going thru a hard time too. i was hoping for a call. or a msg. that somehow didn't quite come.
Whatever.
i hope this pass.
yucks.
i'm so disgusted with myself.
very actually.
Why is it that when pple get attached, they tend to forget abt other things. ok maybe forget is the wrong word to use.
and maybe i'm jus being an idiot. being selfish being sick. being disgusting and being what other adjectives that i can't tink of. but, to sum it up, yesh, i feel neglected.
i ask myself. am i being upset cos i'm demanding the same kind of attn that You gave when you were not attached. or am i now jealous that i'm not getting as much attn as Your other half? or am i like expecting the same kind of attn that i give You, and frankly, to be fair to myself, No.
but with You, i feel forgotten. so many times. and each time i call, most times, i feel like i'm bothering You. and it was never like that before.
is it so hard to ask, " why was it horrid for you?" " Do you want to talk abt it?"
i'd have done that.
i'd have rushed all the way down from whereever i am jus to be wif you, when you're down. even if you're down for the slightest ting.
i'm not expecting you to do this kinda ting for me.i'm not expecting You to do the same kind of thing for me, i'm not expecting you to hold me with the same kind of cherish that i hold you.
and to You, i was going thru a hard time too. i was hoping for a call. or a msg. that somehow didn't quite come.
Whatever.
i hope this pass.
yucks.
i'm so disgusted with myself.