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i want to shoot myself.
it sounds stupid that i'm being affected by sth this stupidthat i said jus now. meant as a joke.but it unveiled a whole huge can of ugly worms inside me.
i was asking CT and SH some questions jus now at the lib. and after i did, i ended up with some stupid joke. a retort to sth that sh said. but which i said sth like ' ha cos i got retained mah' right.
how dumbe.and after i saide it, i've been feeling a bit crappy.
right. i'm scared of that.
how ridiculous. the once me who does well. is scared of ebing retained. sometimes i hate med school. cos it makes me feel dumbe.
real dumb.
i jus want to get thru once, without having to go thru some stupid VIVA or stupid sub paper. what in the world is wrong with me?
goodness gracious. its like i made a mistake and missed a step and i jus can't stop falling. i jus keep falling and falling. tis like some quicksand.
i'm not even coherent now.
but, ya its this can of worms, all my fears andworries. how dumb but how true.
crap/ jus plain crap.
and eva since i've gotten into a relationship in JC1, and my results plummeted really badly. i've never been able to be on form again. i don't like being the one to ask queistions.
i' want to go back to the old me. the one whom ppple ask questions from. CRAP CRAP.
i sound like a spoilt brat.
it sounds stupid that i'm being affected by sth this stupidthat i said jus now. meant as a joke.but it unveiled a whole huge can of ugly worms inside me.
i was asking CT and SH some questions jus now at the lib. and after i did, i ended up with some stupid joke. a retort to sth that sh said. but which i said sth like ' ha cos i got retained mah' right.
how dumbe.and after i saide it, i've been feeling a bit crappy.
right. i'm scared of that.
how ridiculous. the once me who does well. is scared of ebing retained. sometimes i hate med school. cos it makes me feel dumbe.
real dumb.
i jus want to get thru once, without having to go thru some stupid VIVA or stupid sub paper. what in the world is wrong with me?
goodness gracious. its like i made a mistake and missed a step and i jus can't stop falling. i jus keep falling and falling. tis like some quicksand.
i'm not even coherent now.
but, ya its this can of worms, all my fears andworries. how dumb but how true.
crap/ jus plain crap.
and eva since i've gotten into a relationship in JC1, and my results plummeted really badly. i've never been able to be on form again. i don't like being the one to ask queistions.
i' want to go back to the old me. the one whom ppple ask questions from. CRAP CRAP.
i sound like a spoilt brat.