GROUCHY DAE
ok. so i;ve tried to blog like yday or 2 days ago. i got d/c, and like lost page after 2 tries. so i decided, it was fate, to tell me to not put up that blog, or whatever was in it, else i'll regret.
perhaps.
i'm in hss. supposed to be studying. in a horrid mood today. grouchy as anything. yikes. and i've slipped back, unconsciously, into this lonely mood. where i feel 'unsure', uncertain, being alone. its so stupid. and i tot i was past that after well, good influence. good influence in a sense that i was able to function, alone. without a probe. but ya. when i realise i was going to be alone. i was seize by this sudden fear. i oso dunoe why.
and well. so i can't exactly get anyone, and i figured, it jus feels so wrong. to want to force/make anyone come with me, jus so i'll be ok. it feels like as if i'm making use of that person. and i don't like this tot.
but i muz add, to those who are reading this now, who have been wif me the past week or so, the company was fabulous, and it was not becos i was lonely and that's why i looked for you guys
rather. this insensible fear gripped me yday, when i realised how the next few weeks would turn out to be. - alone most times. and i'm not sure if it would be an all together bad thing. since i do need to concentrate.
in any case. i hope this will pass soon. cos it feels horrid.
perhaps.
i'm in hss. supposed to be studying. in a horrid mood today. grouchy as anything. yikes. and i've slipped back, unconsciously, into this lonely mood. where i feel 'unsure', uncertain, being alone. its so stupid. and i tot i was past that after well, good influence. good influence in a sense that i was able to function, alone. without a probe. but ya. when i realise i was going to be alone. i was seize by this sudden fear. i oso dunoe why.
and well. so i can't exactly get anyone, and i figured, it jus feels so wrong. to want to force/make anyone come with me, jus so i'll be ok. it feels like as if i'm making use of that person. and i don't like this tot.
but i muz add, to those who are reading this now, who have been wif me the past week or so, the company was fabulous, and it was not becos i was lonely and that's why i looked for you guys
rather. this insensible fear gripped me yday, when i realised how the next few weeks would turn out to be. - alone most times. and i'm not sure if it would be an all together bad thing. since i do need to concentrate.
in any case. i hope this will pass soon. cos it feels horrid.