Post-Chosen stories where Buffy is a suicidal wreck because Spike is dead puzzle me. I can believe she had feelings for him at the end. I can believe those feelings were love, in the moment of his death. (I also think that if he had survived, she'd very likely have panicked and backpedaled and been very glad of that "no you don't" out, but that'
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I'm pretty sure that Buffy contemplated suicide during season six, though. If she'd had to deal with the crap of season six earlier in her life, she might have done it, but I think she would be more likely to run. I think that running at the end of season two taught her that, no matter where she goes, she carries herself with her. But, in season six, she has memories, vague memories but still, of things being ever so much better while she was dead.
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I think she is coming pretty close in Once More With Feeling where she starts to dance and burn and Spike has to stop her....
He had to stop her because she, like the other victims, couldn't stop. It was part of the spell. Sweet wanted to see the slayer burn.
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How does she welcome it? She sings that there isn't anything worth singing about in her life. That's not suicidal. A lot of people feel that way every day and they're not looking at gun prices. Mindless drudgery, repetitiveness at work and no light at the end of the tunnel. She's feeling bereft of passion, but she never expresses a desire to end it.
Spike trying to convince her doesn't have much to do with her at all. He saved her from Sweet's spell and then tried to tell her that life sucks but keep going. That's him talking, not her. It's the spell otherwise there'd other instances of it.
Cumulatively there's not a ton of support. She doesn't even take high-risk fights, a la, Faith jumping into vamp nest in S3. I think what really drives it home is Gone when she's actually faced with the idea of dying, she's scared. It's an indication she never really thought about it.
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Her despair at the end of S5 was about what being a slayer accomplished, not about how the world is. Why keep fighting when it all gets taken away. If Dawn died, she was quitting.
particularly when she describes to him Heaven as a place where she was warm and loved and complete, and now being back alive is harsh and violent and hell-like
Not existential either. Great place vs bad place isn't necessarily a desire to return to great place at any cost. Especially given that we never see her attempt to. She could have simply let the demon kill her in that very episode.
Suicide and self-sacrifice have something of an overlap. And every Slayer has a death-wish!So she's suicidal in S2 when she takes poison to help the hospital kids? In terms of outcome, yes, it's taking your own life. In terms of intent, they're very different. She sacrifices herself for her sister in the last episode. Would another option be available, would they both climb down ( ... )
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I'm coming to this way late but - YES AND THANK YOU.
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