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Help Me Ragzterize The World!
Still need some assistance for my trip to London in July for The Parallax Art Fair!https://www.gofundme.com/getdavidtolondon
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THE PARALLAX ART FAIR!
I have an amazing opportunity to be a part of The Parallax Art Fair in London in July!!! But I need help to get there! Here's a link to The GoFundMe that my awesome niece hath put together for me. If you can help, or share or know of some great ways to get there(flights and deals) and where to stay for this event, please feel free to message me. I ( Read more... ) -
The Dream of A Future That Will Never Be
Let me tell you about a dream I had many years ago. It was such a great dream, I have never forgotten it. It was like a look into my future, a perfect future, that I held on too many years, in hopes it would proven to be true.
But, considering our situation, it was unlikely. But, I still would think of it many times.
In this dream, I had an art ( Read more... ) -
Ups and Downs And All Arounds
The past few days I have actually been better as far as my depression and anxiety goes. I was able to get some things done and face the world.
Course that could be because I didn't have to work and the roads have been good. I guess we'll see how I deal with it all tomorrow when I'm back to work and we are expected some snow tonight.
Plus, Thursday ( Read more... ) -
High Anxiety. You Win.
So tired of being overwhelmed with anxiety. It's bad enough that tomorrow is Monday, I haven't found a way out of this suck ass city yet, and I have to deal with a snowstorm tomorrow driving to work and back.
Trying to relax and take my mind off of it, but nothing is working. Beyond stressed.
Fucking Hell.
Well, if I die tomorrow at least I got out ( Read more... ) -
The Unwanted Recalling
I finally had a dream last night that Stacey was in. I didn't know where we were at, but it was someplace like a park, at night, slightly foggy and warm. I was looking for her and couldn't find her, then she appeared right in front of me. We hugged and she smiled and I told her I loved her. She smiled again. I then asked her to marry me again and ( Read more... ) -
Staying Away From The Holidays
The snow has arrived. I hate snow. It makes driving a frigging nightmare, it's cold and it's always trying to kill me.
But, I had to venture out this morning to pay bills and try to find a cheap gift for a co-worker because we're doing that whole Secret Santa thing. I don't have any clue what to get this guy. He lives such a different life than I ( Read more... ) -
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It takes everything I have, every iota of strength to get through every day. You know that feeling when you spin out in your car or just miss an accident and your heart is racing and it feels like it's going to burst out of your chest?
I feel like that all the time.
When I get home, I burst.
It all comes out and I crumble. The only thing that helps ( Read more... ) -
Trying to get outside of my own head
Patton Oswalt has been a very important help in trying to deal with the loss of Stacey.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENIIevCgel4
