Staying Away From The Holidays
The snow has arrived. I hate snow. It makes driving a frigging nightmare, it's cold and it's always trying to kill me.
But, I had to venture out this morning to pay bills and try to find a cheap gift for a co-worker because we're doing that whole Secret Santa thing. I don't have any clue what to get this guy. He lives such a different life than I that I have no idea what to get him. But, I ventured into a nearby Target to see what they had.
Couldn't find anything, but saw a toaster in the shape of a Star Wars Deathstar. I immediately thought of Stacey. She would've order this for sure. She would have loved it. Then I saw a Lost In Space robot, which, I'm pretty sure she would have ordered for me. I just know she would've. She knew how much I loved that guy.
So, I just had to leave the store before I burst out in tears. Not because I didn't go and buy that stuff, but because knowing Stacey she would have been so excited about it all. This is the first Christmas without her. She was the best gift giver in the world. She LOVED giving gifts. She had so much fun with it, and she was super good at it. She could always find that rare thing that she would always surprise me with. I always got her big cardboard cutouts of her fave sexy dudes- Thor, Loki Bucky, Capt. Hook from Once Upon A Time.
This year will be none of that. I have no expectations of enjoying this season at all. It's going to be torture. I just want Christmas and all that fuckery that goes along with it, to go away.
So, I won't be doing that again. Best to stay out of any store for now.