Unattractive

[ragdollxstarpnk]

I think I need to keep things to myself. I at least need to stop retelling stories at work. There's a cute bartender at the bar we go to that was completely flirting with Dave in front of me on saturday. And he was flirting back. See I dwell on things. I let it go and now I'm almost in tears about it. I don't want to bring it up and keep showing him how insecure I am but it's bothering me. So now I feel so incredibly unattractive, I'm sitting here trying to think of ways to please to be more attractive amd make him happy. Lose weight, apease to his every need.
I'm so tired of feeling so insignificant. It's too hard for me to find some fake self confidence in my self. So all I can do is not consentrate on me and do all I can for him...
This sucks.