Unhappy
I hate venting about things and emotions that I try to keep inside. Or rather not talk about them b/c Im afraid I'll just focus on the more after finally admitting them. But Im unhappy. I feel like Im fighting a losing battle with Dave. I feel that after everything we've been through after all hes put me through I have tried hard to change and put more into the relationship. I mean maybe I havent but I feel like I have. Dave on the other hand I feel has not done anything. So, on top of everything he's done to me and the countless "You owe me" moments that by now he will never be able to pay back, his schedule is completely constricting and difficult. he works 6 days a week. 1 of the 6 days he now works from 11am to 2am. And of course that is on a day that Im off the entire day. Then on his 1 day off I only get him for half the day b/c he has band practice that day. I dont want him to quit the band but I wish it was on a different day but no, no one else can do it durring the weekdays so he has to accomadte everyone else while I constantly get put on the back burner.
Im just so frustrated. WIth Dave, Im always second to everything in his life. we fight a lot. he stinks soooo badly! He farts constantly (even when Im trying to have a serious converstaion) he doesnt please me sexually. Im just so tired of fighting this losing battle.
Im just so frustrated. WIth Dave, Im always second to everything in his life. we fight a lot. he stinks soooo badly! He farts constantly (even when Im trying to have a serious converstaion) he doesnt please me sexually. Im just so tired of fighting this losing battle.