Porno
So I go on the computer this morning and see an open file, it says like xxx ashley something. I click it and it's a porno of some blonde chick getting fucked over and over. Now my first thought is I thought Dave didn't like blondes... dumb I know. Then my next thought is we just had sex last night and he was still up looking at porn jerking off to this tiny blonde girl. Was he not satisfied? Would he rather fuck this blonde chick then me? Basically.
Recently a friend made a page for a "club" that we came up with on a joke and she loaded old pictures of me. Pictures of when I was a lot smaller and that gave me a huge complex realizing how much weight I've gained and feeling extremely ugly and fat and completely unattractive.
So on top of all those feelings and thoughts I've had I get to see the porno Dave watched just after me and him had sex... yea I'm feeling pretty great. I'm just bumed and it sucks to get slapped in the face with the reality of all your insecurities. That seems to happen to me a lot.
Recently a friend made a page for a "club" that we came up with on a joke and she loaded old pictures of me. Pictures of when I was a lot smaller and that gave me a huge complex realizing how much weight I've gained and feeling extremely ugly and fat and completely unattractive.
So on top of all those feelings and thoughts I've had I get to see the porno Dave watched just after me and him had sex... yea I'm feeling pretty great. I'm just bumed and it sucks to get slapped in the face with the reality of all your insecurities. That seems to happen to me a lot.