Just going to have to except it....
I've said before that so far in my life I have never loved anyone as much as I loved Matt. I was scared that he would be it, that I wouldnt love anyone else as much. But I told myself no, I'm young I'll find someone better.
I have a friend who is very indepent and self assured he told me about a boyfriend he once had and admitted that he was the one and was the love of his life, and that if he walked in the door he would drop everything and be with him. It blew me away b/c this friend did not seem like that type of person at all. He also said you can't help who fall inlove, you can't choose who you fall inlove but that doesn't mean that it will always work out or is meant to be.
I thought about that and still feared that Matt would be it. I now have come to the realization that he just might be. I had found the man I wanted to marry, I had a house with him and dreamt of our future together. I loved him more then I have ever loved anyone before, and more then I ever knew I could love. I think he meight have been the one, and I might just have to be one of the very unlucky people that go through life having lost the love of their life.
I have a friend who is very indepent and self assured he told me about a boyfriend he once had and admitted that he was the one and was the love of his life, and that if he walked in the door he would drop everything and be with him. It blew me away b/c this friend did not seem like that type of person at all. He also said you can't help who fall inlove, you can't choose who you fall inlove but that doesn't mean that it will always work out or is meant to be.
I thought about that and still feared that Matt would be it. I now have come to the realization that he just might be. I had found the man I wanted to marry, I had a house with him and dreamt of our future together. I loved him more then I have ever loved anyone before, and more then I ever knew I could love. I think he meight have been the one, and I might just have to be one of the very unlucky people that go through life having lost the love of their life.