Dreams
I hate when I dream about him...
Usually if I dream about him it's always bad. And I'll wake up thinking about him, and then be stuck with it pretty much all day. Even when we were together I would always have dreams that he was cheating on me and I'd find out and he'd see nothing wrong with it...
But this dream I had last night was a good one... he took me back, and I was kissing him, and I was happy. I wake up and I think what a fucked up way to wake up: I'm having dreams about being with my ex- boyfriend while my current boyfriend is laying right next to me. I feel almost guilty b/c it kind of changes how I feel about Dave just for a moment. True I am not inlove with Dave. But I'm not inlove with Matt, sometimes I think I am but I know I'm not. I think if I were ever to find out that he misses me and still cares I'd have peace of mind.
The phsycic I saw on my birthday told me he was going to come back. I've been through so many different emotions as to the insight. I'm always wondering if he will, and lately I wonder if in my drunken stuper I've told him that. I fear I did. Either way, I just need to shake him off.
Usually if I dream about him it's always bad. And I'll wake up thinking about him, and then be stuck with it pretty much all day. Even when we were together I would always have dreams that he was cheating on me and I'd find out and he'd see nothing wrong with it...
But this dream I had last night was a good one... he took me back, and I was kissing him, and I was happy. I wake up and I think what a fucked up way to wake up: I'm having dreams about being with my ex- boyfriend while my current boyfriend is laying right next to me. I feel almost guilty b/c it kind of changes how I feel about Dave just for a moment. True I am not inlove with Dave. But I'm not inlove with Matt, sometimes I think I am but I know I'm not. I think if I were ever to find out that he misses me and still cares I'd have peace of mind.
The phsycic I saw on my birthday told me he was going to come back. I've been through so many different emotions as to the insight. I'm always wondering if he will, and lately I wonder if in my drunken stuper I've told him that. I fear I did. Either way, I just need to shake him off.