Empty
So that is it he is gone. He came to say good-bye and all that I could say was. "See ya" what the hell was I thinking why am I such a spaz. I can tell complete strangers that they are hot and that I want to keep them but I could not tell Gueido what I really wanted to say. I feel so empty. It is weird. I thought that it would hurt more than this! I guess that I was wrong. Like I have been so many many many times before. I have given up on ever being happy with someone. I will do it alone. I guess I have no choice. This LJ is starting to get pretty sad. I promise my next update will be more fun. But that will come tomorrow because tonight I am tired.