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day one being back at school after spring break.. i guess you should say it's a blast back into reality.. today i was woken up at about 7 and rushed into packing the car and enbarking on the two hour excusion back into northeatern pennsilvania.. my new home.. i got back i guess about ten and i can;t really say i didn;t anything productive for the first hour i was here except maybe unpack and say hello to a couple of friends.. then i had class at 12.. and then lunch at two with everyone.. it was nice to see them all.. but to be honest nice would just be an understantment-- each one of them i missed and to be back and really feel like i never missed a beat is pricless.. it's amazing how at college you can go away and come back with everything the same.. it's like a whole new family.. after lunch i was teased by the boys who live a floor below.. then began getting into the swing of things and do homework.. i read an increadible amount of history tonight followed by psycology and then i looked at a tentative course schedual for next semester.. dinner was eventful.. however not everyone was there .. afterwards i came back and did some more homework and dozed alittle bit before finnally deciding to play a sport.. so the troops were round up and six of us played ultimate soccer in the gym.. it was beyond fun.. then we came back showered.. the always entertaining kasey king was online so we talked a bit .. and now he has gone to bed..
it's crazy to think that two nights ago i was getting ready for bed with him.. not in a dirty way all you guys.. but i truly think that the last weekend was really just time spent with eachother that was basically time we needed to spend with eachother.. it was a check in time and a very intense couple of days.. and you kno what .. after spending all that time with him i didn;t feel like i needed to kill myself or anything like that.. infact the exact oposite.. i felt like i was the most important person in the world and i had something to work for.. it's nice knowing that everything will work out.. and for a reason.. the future and forever are starting to take shape.. and i'm ready to embrace them.. it's not that he has to be the one.. it's just that it wouldn;t be so bad if he was.. and so far .. though i'll be the first to admit it has been increadibly hard.. we seem to be surviving..
i don't know.. i was really flatered with the fact that one of kasey's friends said to me i didn;t understand how we could deal with the distance.. but after meeting me he understood how.. and right now i love him.. and right now i miss him.. but you know what with weekends like this.. i guess it is worth it.. and at the end of the day those are the things you have to think about.. it's funny how you think it's over and you get a second wind.. i guess what i'm saying to is that life is unexpected and you have to be ready for it.. and that he always seems to pull though in the end..
i have english tomarrow.. and i've procrastinated the reading long enough.. night
it's crazy to think that two nights ago i was getting ready for bed with him.. not in a dirty way all you guys.. but i truly think that the last weekend was really just time spent with eachother that was basically time we needed to spend with eachother.. it was a check in time and a very intense couple of days.. and you kno what .. after spending all that time with him i didn;t feel like i needed to kill myself or anything like that.. infact the exact oposite.. i felt like i was the most important person in the world and i had something to work for.. it's nice knowing that everything will work out.. and for a reason.. the future and forever are starting to take shape.. and i'm ready to embrace them.. it's not that he has to be the one.. it's just that it wouldn;t be so bad if he was.. and so far .. though i'll be the first to admit it has been increadibly hard.. we seem to be surviving..
i don't know.. i was really flatered with the fact that one of kasey's friends said to me i didn;t understand how we could deal with the distance.. but after meeting me he understood how.. and right now i love him.. and right now i miss him.. but you know what with weekends like this.. i guess it is worth it.. and at the end of the day those are the things you have to think about.. it's funny how you think it's over and you get a second wind.. i guess what i'm saying to is that life is unexpected and you have to be ready for it.. and that he always seems to pull though in the end..
i have english tomarrow.. and i've procrastinated the reading long enough.. night