10 attempts to connect to you
1. School is wonderful, exciting and overwhelming all at once. Did you know that there is not an age that reports a decreased life satisfaction? There is no such thing as a midlife crisis and having empty-nest syndrome is a myth. In fact, most people experience a second honeymoon in their marriage (provided they have a healthy relationship with their child/children).
2. Finn is no longer in part-time daycare and there is a silver lining despite what I may have moaned about a week ago. He and I are working on some power struggles, boundary issues and limits that I think really only he and I can work on. Eric is involved as well, for certain, but there is a dynamic that happens with him and people that is amplified in his and I's relationship. He feels safe with me. So, we are working on it however slowly and methodically. Today, I see his behavior improving and our relationship improving. I think I was using daycare as a means to get a break, but also to let him dominate the rest of my waking hours.
3. Oi, oi. Daycare. I tried to type the story out and it's too long. In short, the owner has a restraining order against her anger-issue-having husband and didn't tell me. Finn was no longer happy. Easy decision. Still, my faith in at-home childcare has diminished greatly. We are ready for preschool in the Fall.
4. Just when I felt I was short on time, I'm more short on time! Please don't feel neglected if I read your blog and haven't commented as much lately. I've had people call me multiple times to get a response and I feel SO bad, but I also know that I can only keep so many things in my field of vision at one time.
5. I've got thrilling new ideas from my therapist about "being okay with me", but one involves accepting my sensitivity AND the fact that I cry easily. I've questioned why I'm so self-conscious about this aspect of my personality and can tie it to some very memorable childhood experiences. It's funny what a great idea "accepting yourself" seems, but the implementation is two steps forward, one step back... for a long time.
6. T minus X days until I take this whole show on the road to Florida-family, school, laptop, AIRPLANE, distance learning, beach, FINN, family, relaxation, 8 HOURS ON A PLANE WITH FINN. ;) I'm not anxious, oh no... I didn't throw some cash down for an airplane goody bag.
7. That reminds me- remember my dad and the toy store owner? They are really happy! She's great and I enjoy her. Good news.
8. I need more ways to unwind as the tension level in my life maintains a peak. Any ideas?
9. It turns out that I may have similar issues in my relationship with my friend's dog as I do with Finn. lol We discovered this over Thai food and wine. I couldn't adore her or her dog more, so more playing field for working things out!
10. I'm writing to you from my new computer. Alas my last one died. I cannot believe that 4 years have past since I got that shoddy Dell, but I know I will never get one again. So far, I heart my HP.
2. Finn is no longer in part-time daycare and there is a silver lining despite what I may have moaned about a week ago. He and I are working on some power struggles, boundary issues and limits that I think really only he and I can work on. Eric is involved as well, for certain, but there is a dynamic that happens with him and people that is amplified in his and I's relationship. He feels safe with me. So, we are working on it however slowly and methodically. Today, I see his behavior improving and our relationship improving. I think I was using daycare as a means to get a break, but also to let him dominate the rest of my waking hours.
3. Oi, oi. Daycare. I tried to type the story out and it's too long. In short, the owner has a restraining order against her anger-issue-having husband and didn't tell me. Finn was no longer happy. Easy decision. Still, my faith in at-home childcare has diminished greatly. We are ready for preschool in the Fall.
4. Just when I felt I was short on time, I'm more short on time! Please don't feel neglected if I read your blog and haven't commented as much lately. I've had people call me multiple times to get a response and I feel SO bad, but I also know that I can only keep so many things in my field of vision at one time.
5. I've got thrilling new ideas from my therapist about "being okay with me", but one involves accepting my sensitivity AND the fact that I cry easily. I've questioned why I'm so self-conscious about this aspect of my personality and can tie it to some very memorable childhood experiences. It's funny what a great idea "accepting yourself" seems, but the implementation is two steps forward, one step back... for a long time.
6. T minus X days until I take this whole show on the road to Florida-family, school, laptop, AIRPLANE, distance learning, beach, FINN, family, relaxation, 8 HOURS ON A PLANE WITH FINN. ;) I'm not anxious, oh no... I didn't throw some cash down for an airplane goody bag.
7. That reminds me- remember my dad and the toy store owner? They are really happy! She's great and I enjoy her. Good news.
8. I need more ways to unwind as the tension level in my life maintains a peak. Any ideas?
9. It turns out that I may have similar issues in my relationship with my friend's dog as I do with Finn. lol We discovered this over Thai food and wine. I couldn't adore her or her dog more, so more playing field for working things out!
10. I'm writing to you from my new computer. Alas my last one died. I cannot believe that 4 years have past since I got that shoddy Dell, but I know I will never get one again. So far, I heart my HP.