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I am trying to figure out what the hell I am supposed to do.
Everything in me is telling me that I need to just go straight at her and tell her how I feel about what has been happening and what has not been said between us.
There is this huge feeling that I am getting from her that she is not wanting me the way I am wanting her, and I would be much happier if I just knew and we could end this now before anyone else (Madison) gets hurt by our experiment into each other.
I for one hope that I am just being a paranoid bastard and she will tell me that I am being stupid. and we can go on together without incident. I like her so much and it physically hurts me that I can't see her any more than I do now, due to schedule conflicts... it just seems like there is more interest on my side to spend time together and she is not as eager to do so.
I still think she is one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen.
too bad she doesn't see it herself.
If you do read this... help me.
Everything in me is telling me that I need to just go straight at her and tell her how I feel about what has been happening and what has not been said between us.
There is this huge feeling that I am getting from her that she is not wanting me the way I am wanting her, and I would be much happier if I just knew and we could end this now before anyone else (Madison) gets hurt by our experiment into each other.
I for one hope that I am just being a paranoid bastard and she will tell me that I am being stupid. and we can go on together without incident. I like her so much and it physically hurts me that I can't see her any more than I do now, due to schedule conflicts... it just seems like there is more interest on my side to spend time together and she is not as eager to do so.
I still think she is one of the most beautiful things I have ever seen.
too bad she doesn't see it herself.
If you do read this... help me.