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My horoscope for today is:
You've used up all of your excuses. It's a relief to know that you're finally limited to one true choice. Stop running and start making things run. You'll wonder why you didn't begin sooner.
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i called randy on friday after him paging me the day before...
after i promised myself i wouldnt,
i went to see him
and i stayed there
and my friends left to TJ without me
on monday while i was in class randy paged me
and i went over there again
and i stayed there again
will someone PLEEEASE......
someone please just shoot me!!!
....he says he loves me and that i will be his wife
only god knows how much i want that
for some reason
deep inside me
i believe him
but i dont think i should
i know i shouldnt
but how perfect those 2 days were...
i held him
and he held me
we laughed
and kissed
and everything was the same for a moment in time
we both told eachother we could have stayed lieing there holding eachother forever
...and i wanted to so much
i touched his face again...
it seemed like an hour
that i went over it with my fingers
and studdied it
i closed my eyes and felt every curve
so that next time i need it
i can remember exactly what it felt like
how can someone need something so simple and so unimportant that seemed to be so familiar but has somehow gotten lost in your memory
as the way their face feels
thier beautiful smile
their laugh
the way they smell
and their walk...
just the knowledge that they are there.....next to you
how can i need those things so much that life seems that it wont go on for me
im lost
and i cant find my way out
i knew i shouldnt have let myself fall in...
<3
<3
You've used up all of your excuses. It's a relief to know that you're finally limited to one true choice. Stop running and start making things run. You'll wonder why you didn't begin sooner.
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i called randy on friday after him paging me the day before...
after i promised myself i wouldnt,
i went to see him
and i stayed there
and my friends left to TJ without me
on monday while i was in class randy paged me
and i went over there again
and i stayed there again
will someone PLEEEASE......
someone please just shoot me!!!
....he says he loves me and that i will be his wife
only god knows how much i want that
for some reason
deep inside me
i believe him
but i dont think i should
i know i shouldnt
but how perfect those 2 days were...
i held him
and he held me
we laughed
and kissed
and everything was the same for a moment in time
we both told eachother we could have stayed lieing there holding eachother forever
...and i wanted to so much
i touched his face again...
it seemed like an hour
that i went over it with my fingers
and studdied it
i closed my eyes and felt every curve
so that next time i need it
i can remember exactly what it felt like
how can someone need something so simple and so unimportant that seemed to be so familiar but has somehow gotten lost in your memory
as the way their face feels
thier beautiful smile
their laugh
the way they smell
and their walk...
just the knowledge that they are there.....next to you
how can i need those things so much that life seems that it wont go on for me
im lost
and i cant find my way out
i knew i shouldnt have let myself fall in...
<3
<3