I hate the t.v. I'm tired of watching Arnold Schwartzennegger rallies. Arnie can't even say California. And! I'm wearing my super grandma sweater! This makes me happy. You know how I do.

My mommy is taking time off work to come home and bring me my favorite lunch, a mexican pizza meal from Taco Bell. I love her. Anyways, I had the worst night last night. I had so much homework and I didn't even finish it, then this creditor called to hassle my mom for money she owes, which I usually tell them she isn't home, but this lady tricked ( Read more... )

Dr. Bronner started me on doubling my medication, and it's got me sooo tired and disoriented. I'm supposed to start a new perscription next week, something stronger that'll actually work. It's kind of scary, all this medicating. Hopefully it's doing something right. Brian is having another kick-back on Friday and I'm bringing Heather, so that'll be ( Read more... )

For myself and one I love.
♥ ♥ ♥

Sitting around, no work today ( Read more... )

This depression isn't lifting and it sucks because tonight I have group and I don't feel like talking about this shit. I actually cried as I was putting together a box of Gina stuff; I haven't cried in a long time. I don't know what's wrong with me, it's like there's a crippling grip on my heart and it won't let up no matter what. I'm so tired of ( Read more... )

I hate the feeling that you've been left behind without a clue. Like you make all these plans with someone and expect to spend the rest of your life by their side, Thelma and Louise style. Then they go to college and never talk to you again. I feel like a little puppy that got deserted and is just sitting there in the rain in the middle of a ( Read more... )

So today was fucking gravy. I got a new fishy because Picante died :/, his name is Admiral Constantine Trailmix. He's a really pretty dusty blue color. I also got some new moccasins and rented The Secret Garden. Rock. So I'm happy. I can't wait to get my new board. Serious, I've been non-stop daydreaming about skating since Saturday. I've just been ( Read more... )

Here's a Christmas list in case anyone wants to buy me something, and I expect everyone else to make lists so I know what to buy them.

- I WANT t h i s MORE THAN ANYTHING!!!!
- Pizza Hut gift card *ahem Cameron*
- this!
- this! [adult small]
- this! and all I really want are books, so here's a list ( Read more... )

So I'm back from my dad's. It wasn't so bad. My brother is growing so fast, he's walking now and even saying a few things. He'll be one in on December 18th. I went shopping with them today and picked out some presents for Christmas. I got some new Jack Purcell's, a shirt and a new Mark Appleyard board with pink grip tape. I don't get them until ( Read more... )

I have to go to my dad's house tomorrow, so I'm really stressed. I know I'm going to have ten thousand attacks when I'm there. On top of that, I have to hide my medication from my dad and my step-mom, who is extremely nosey and will most likely rummage through my shit. He'll get pissed if he finds out they're medicating me, he thinks I need therapy ( Read more... )