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wow. my aunt is going to die. they didnt come out and say it. but she has a blood clot near her heart now and the drain they put into her head is not working. so much this woman has been through just so she can live, and now we will find out it was worth nothing except suffering on this earth for just a bit longer. all we need right now is a miracle. which i dont have faith in, i dont know who or what i have faith in anymore. i dont see my close friends anymore, it seems as if they have someone new in their life now. god dammnit sometimes i feel like im at an absolute low and then im at an absolute high. i got my job which i love which put me up and now i hear this shit right before i have to work a double today. i need something extraordinary to happen. i need my friends to be here for me when i need them. there is so much i have inside my head i wish i could say to them but its just a waste of breathe. i need something extraordinary to happen. dont tell me your here for me because if you really were you'd be HERE for me. fuck you.