Mar 10, 2010 09:41
I stopped smoking in December. Around that time I started running. I love running. It's fun and I have a long term goal of one day running a marathon. Right now I can't run a mile yet so it will be a while before I'm able to run 26 miles! lol But it's a goal that I have for maybe another 2 or 3 years at the least (5 years at the most).
Last weekend we partied. We had so much fun!
Well, since it was a weekend of indulgence, I smoked. I hate that. Mostly because I haven't stopped smoking since.
Today I went back to running (didn't work out Monday or yesterday). I couldn't do it! I kept on feeling like I was suffocating. My body was ready for it. My lungs said "Hell no!"
Also I noticed that since the weekend I really don't have much energy. I am having trouble sleeping and when I wake up I feel drained. I hadn't felt that way since December really. I mean some days I was too tired but for the most part I felt pretty good. I believe it's because my body isn't getting enough oxygen because my lungs are filled with smoke. And I'm not sleeping well because of the nicotine.
I have a few cigarettes left but I'm not going to smoke them. My step-father smokes the same brand. So I think I'll just give the few I have left to him. From this moment on I'm going to make an effort not to smoke ever again. Party or not.