Feb 18, 2010 10:19
Hi, everyone.
I'm new...I quit smoking on the first and thought I'd been doing okay with it, but I think I'm starting to go a little nuts. I keep exploding in a rage on all of my friends. I can't stand my family. Noises that wouldnt have bothered me two weeks ago (e.g, annoying music in the cartoons my daughter watches) feel like torture now. I feel like everyone in the world is trying to annoy or upset me on purpose, and I just want to scream at them until they stop. Today, I can't stop crying. And I don't understand it, because it's only been, like, these last few days where it's been like this- when I first went cold turkey, I was fine. Desperate to smoke, but fine. Now I'm a mess and I feel like I can't deal with anything.
Is this normal? Just suddenly becoming a raw emotional mass of nerves wiating to be set off nearly three weeks into quitting? I thought that I'd be getting better now, but I seem to be getting worse. Much, much worse. I don't feel like I can talk to my friends and family about it, not after the way I've been exploding all over them for the past three days. It feels like anything I say now will just come off as an excuse for me just being a bitch.
I feel so miserable. Should I still feel this way now? Will I go on feeling this way for a long time? What should I do?