...My heart is bleeding, leaving a stain on the floor...
wow...its amazing how so much can change in one single second...something you thought that couldn't happen, happens. A double sided world...one side makes sense, the other confused.
Yesterday...
~Went to Barnes and Noble with Kathleen, Andy and Tanya
~Went to the mall...got a new wallet
~Went to smoothie King...got the best fucking smoothie in the world
~Went to Andy's house and went online
~Drove back to NSB, dropped of Tanya and Kathleen
~Went home
~Ate dinner with my dad
~Met up with Jeremy so he could testdrive my car...he may buy it for 1000 then I get a new one
~Went home
~Watched TV
~Went online
~Broke my own heart
~Cried myself to sleep
Today...
~Woke up dreading the day
~Came to school
~Still at school
Afterschool...
~Go home empty handed and alone
Next week I'm going to New York...as I've said in pretty much every entry this week...I'm hoping that it will put things into perspective...Maybe it will make a few things right, being able to see how my family is doing.
Remember how in elementry school they would always ask you what you are thankful for on Thanksgiving and such...Most kids would say my family, my house, school...something along those lines...This Thanksgiving...I'm thankful for my family and my friends...not school though...but the main thing I'm thankful for is him...he made it all better...he still is...even though we arn't together...for now...I know it will all work out in the end.
...Today that brief hug needed to last longer...The warmth of your body empowered my heart.
Today that one look, withered and broken...drove guilt straight into myself broken heart
I made them that way...those once bright eyes
I was the one who made them wither and die
Today that voice acknowledged my presence
Today those tears that streamed from your eyes
Fell from your cheeks and came streaming out of my mine
Today is the day I was dreading lastnight
Today I want to just spread my wings and fly
Fly far away...away from this life
Fly away from reality and into the sky
Today is not the end of the world
Today is just the end of my world
Today however is followed by tomorrow
Tomorrow however is followed by forever
This hole in my heart
This hole is for you
It needs to be mended and I know you do to
Today doesn't have to be the very end
Today can just be the beginning of an intermission
The end is far
Far away from us
We will have more today's and many more tomorrow's
Trust me on this
For this I know is true
I knew this in my heart
The day I prayed for you
I prayed on that day for you to be mine
My prayer was answered in short time
This intermission, don't let it get you down
For you know in your heart, that you have my heart and hand forever and always
Today that brief hug needed to last longer...
Its strange isn't it...how you can have so many different feelings inside...but feel blank.
later days
Yesterday...
~Went to Barnes and Noble with Kathleen, Andy and Tanya
~Went to the mall...got a new wallet
~Went to smoothie King...got the best fucking smoothie in the world
~Went to Andy's house and went online
~Drove back to NSB, dropped of Tanya and Kathleen
~Went home
~Ate dinner with my dad
~Met up with Jeremy so he could testdrive my car...he may buy it for 1000 then I get a new one
~Went home
~Watched TV
~Went online
~Broke my own heart
~Cried myself to sleep
Today...
~Woke up dreading the day
~Came to school
~Still at school
Afterschool...
~Go home empty handed and alone
Next week I'm going to New York...as I've said in pretty much every entry this week...I'm hoping that it will put things into perspective...Maybe it will make a few things right, being able to see how my family is doing.
Remember how in elementry school they would always ask you what you are thankful for on Thanksgiving and such...Most kids would say my family, my house, school...something along those lines...This Thanksgiving...I'm thankful for my family and my friends...not school though...but the main thing I'm thankful for is him...he made it all better...he still is...even though we arn't together...for now...I know it will all work out in the end.
...Today that brief hug needed to last longer...The warmth of your body empowered my heart.
Today that one look, withered and broken...drove guilt straight into myself broken heart
I made them that way...those once bright eyes
I was the one who made them wither and die
Today that voice acknowledged my presence
Today those tears that streamed from your eyes
Fell from your cheeks and came streaming out of my mine
Today is the day I was dreading lastnight
Today I want to just spread my wings and fly
Fly far away...away from this life
Fly away from reality and into the sky
Today is not the end of the world
Today is just the end of my world
Today however is followed by tomorrow
Tomorrow however is followed by forever
This hole in my heart
This hole is for you
It needs to be mended and I know you do to
Today doesn't have to be the very end
Today can just be the beginning of an intermission
The end is far
Far away from us
We will have more today's and many more tomorrow's
Trust me on this
For this I know is true
I knew this in my heart
The day I prayed for you
I prayed on that day for you to be mine
My prayer was answered in short time
This intermission, don't let it get you down
For you know in your heart, that you have my heart and hand forever and always
Today that brief hug needed to last longer...
Its strange isn't it...how you can have so many different feelings inside...but feel blank.
later days