Actually being quite calm right now. Think last night when I wrote all of that previous entry it had a cathartic effect. After writing it and sleep I'm a lot better really. But still needed to say it here too. Something that got me out of bed before Gentle Ben had left the house for work ( Read more... )

Bub says she doesn't want to read this and perhaps that is why I'm being confessional. Not that I'd be mad if she did. I have to confess that when she said it was OK to go back, and I was confronted with her obvious self damage I was disturbed and not in a worried friend type way. More freaked. It's not something you like to hear about, specially ( Read more... )