Wow.
I'm finally getting my life on-track
and it feels good.
There are several libraries around here.
It's great.
=)
In fact, I'm at one now.
Tee hee.
I might not post in this LJ for very much longer.
This was more of a teenage angsty sort of thing.
So now I'm willing to start over.
I guess, packing up and moving on
&& shrugging off what some of my former ( Read more... )

I'm starting to realize what life is all about.

I'm starting to grow up & out of the petty arguments.

I'm giving my all, finally.

And it feels great.

I am so grateful for all that I have in this world- family, friends, love, and the strength to make things happen.

The possibilities are endless, and it's going to take a little bit of time before I can ( Read more... )

I've come to terms with the fact that I hardly have any friends left.
I have hardly talked to anybody since Zack and I moved out of the bus. But that's really nobody's fault but my own. I chose to distance myself from everybody else to be with him. And I guess I'm going to have to deal with that decision. But I miss communicating with people. I miss ( Read more... )

You take me by the hand
[and everything falls into place.]
Kiss away my fears
[Hold me tight through this long night,]
Your smile,
[it completes me]
Your touch
[is almost too much]
Your eyes
[they consume me.]
I love it all.
[Every moment.]
Thank you
[for being a part of my life.]

Fin

Mrs. Wagner [drama teacher] is pregnant.
I'm excited for her!
She'll make a great mom.
=)

I was going to write a letter on here- one of those venty little things to my dad, just to let it all out.
I'm not nearly as carefree as I seem, I think that I just realized that. Charmane keeps telling me that I carrry too much baggage, and I'm starting to see where she's coming from. I carry too much inside of me, I need to let it out before I ( Read more... )

So Zack convinced me to "play hookey" yesterday.
We just basically hung around the bus all day- we were both exhausted, and needed a day to recuperate.
Who cares if he was more tired physically, and if I was tired emotionally? We needed a break, simple as that.
Nothing really exciting happened, really. At least nothing that I can write about without ( Read more... )

So.
Zack and I are living together, now.
It's hard to believe that things changed so much in such a small amount of time.
Four days ago, I was still living at home.
[I don't know how I stood living there, to tell you the truth.]
Now, it's an entirely different ballgame.
And all that I can do is hang on.
[I don't mind hanging on, as long as he's alongside ( Read more... )

So, let's just sit back, relax, and take a few [hundred] deep breaths.
I don't know why, but I'm suddenly really very calm.
Have I reached an actual peace with myself, I wonder?
If so, I kind of like it.

<3 

Life makes sense now.
I don't think that I can find the words to describe it...
[hallucinogens aren't really all that scary.]
The 29th, which is incidentally both Amanda's birthday and the one-year anniversary of my Grandma's death, now holds new meaning.
Things finally clicked, if only for an instant.
And the knowledge that things are going to be okay ( Read more... )