latest update
I've come to terms with the fact that I hardly have any friends left.
I have hardly talked to anybody since Zack and I moved out of the bus. But that's really nobody's fault but my own. I chose to distance myself from everybody else to be with him. And I guess I'm going to have to deal with that decision. But I miss communicating with people. I miss writing notes and letters, I miss having girls that I can talk to about girl stuff.
I want to be liked, I've always wanted to be liked. I've slowly learned to accept that people don't really like me all that much, though.
I'm not asking for anybody's sympathy, I'm just stating facts. I am not a well-liked person. And I have no idea why.
So far, the highlights of my life include poking smot with my aunt, and getting buzzed off of really yummy wine coolers.
Not much to be proud of, I haven't accomplished anything since I've been here.
The lowlights of my life are that my birth control is being a bitch, and that I'm in the middle of suburbia where it's hot and smoky.
I miss Oregon terribly, but once we come back, things might just return to their former glory- no running water, having to rely on the generousity of others for certain things like tobacco and such.
I want to go home.
It's boring here
But at least I can take showers.
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