Just a Whole Pile of Blah
So, apparently I put forth a bad image.
And I'm not taking the awesome, riding a motorcycle, fighting crime way. No, my bad image is in the way I deal with people. Specifically, how things have been going in my placement school, where I do my practical experience while learning to become a teacher.
And apparently these issues are severe enough that they needed to be brought to the faculty and put in my official file.
Guh.
So when you get right down to it, I don't respond to feedback properly and have issues with staff relations. There are some other surrounding thing that I don't want to get into, but it boils down to feedback and dealing with people. Responding properly to feedback, taking accountability and maintaining it. And the staff relations thing is this whole mysterious rabbit hole that baffles me that I just do not know what to do about. And the feedback thing has a lot to with how I say things and my general mannerisms.
Needless to say. I am not thrilled about this. Like at all. All this is in my permanent file. Including some things about punctuality with I am too angry about to even think about right now. I do honestly try really hard to relate to people properly and it is so frustrating to me that that is not coming across, that somehow my intentions and my actions are so horribly misaligned. I feel like if I could just change this one thing about myself, things would be going really well. If I could just figure out how to do this properly, communicate, react, be around these people properly, my life would be a lot better than it is now.
And I just can't figure it out.
Sorry to unload like that. I just needed to get it all out. Have you been through something similar? Do you have something you always struggle with that effects how people see you? Please let me know if you do. I would love to learn from your experience.
<3
And I'm not taking the awesome, riding a motorcycle, fighting crime way. No, my bad image is in the way I deal with people. Specifically, how things have been going in my placement school, where I do my practical experience while learning to become a teacher.
And apparently these issues are severe enough that they needed to be brought to the faculty and put in my official file.
Guh.
So when you get right down to it, I don't respond to feedback properly and have issues with staff relations. There are some other surrounding thing that I don't want to get into, but it boils down to feedback and dealing with people. Responding properly to feedback, taking accountability and maintaining it. And the staff relations thing is this whole mysterious rabbit hole that baffles me that I just do not know what to do about. And the feedback thing has a lot to with how I say things and my general mannerisms.
Needless to say. I am not thrilled about this. Like at all. All this is in my permanent file. Including some things about punctuality with I am too angry about to even think about right now. I do honestly try really hard to relate to people properly and it is so frustrating to me that that is not coming across, that somehow my intentions and my actions are so horribly misaligned. I feel like if I could just change this one thing about myself, things would be going really well. If I could just figure out how to do this properly, communicate, react, be around these people properly, my life would be a lot better than it is now.
And I just can't figure it out.
Sorry to unload like that. I just needed to get it all out. Have you been through something similar? Do you have something you always struggle with that effects how people see you? Please let me know if you do. I would love to learn from your experience.
<3