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does anyone understand me? is there anyone in this world who truly cares enough to put their effort forth to honestly understand me? do i even understand myself? i care so much about the things that are not within my grasp. i cannot control what matters so much to me. all of my life i've been in complete and total control of my surroundings and my lifestyle. the people i choose to be with and the way i choose to live my life. but anymore, i have no hold on anything. my mind is so intense right now. my thoughts are scattered everywhere. i cannot find my emotions, for they are streched to their limits. i love and i hate. i cry and i laugh. when will my feelings explode into nothing? can i just run into oblivion. i want to be five again.