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Yup its official... I want to die.. like right the fuck now.. and guess what NO ONE GIVES A FLYING FUCK!! yay for fuckin me.. hmm my birthday is coming up soon.. I know what I'm going to be doing.. sitting in front of my comp being bored sad and even more depressed.. just like last year and the year b4 that. I'm so not looking forward to being 17 I'm not even looking forward to my birthday. I wish for just fucking once someone would fucking give a shit about me.. and what I'm going thru. I'm tired of ppl always jumping at the chance to help my sister.. I mean fuck.. what about me?! atleast my problems are over my stupid bf all the fucking time.. (well in my case it would be gf) I mean there are more fucking problems in my life than fucking crying over a fucking girlfriend lots of worse things.. and still no one cares about me.. no one offers to come over and cuddle with me.. no one offers a fucking shoulder to cry on for me. WHAT THE HELL DO I HAVE TO DO TO GET SOMEONE TO BE HERE FOR ME!? I mean shit.. do I need to do what my sister did and fucking cut her head open and get fucking 8 stitches and then get thrown in the fucking psych ward?! One of these days.. someone is going to find me dead.. and all of the ppl who were never there for me will be sorry. all the ppl who loved me and never told me will be sorry. one of these days I will be gone.. and no one can say or do shit b/c it will be too fucking late. No one believes me when I say I want to die and that I have been wanting to die for a very long time.. but guess what NEWS FUCKIN FLASH!!! I DO WANT TO FUCKING DIE AND IF I DIDN'T HAVE A FUCKING SON I WOULD BE DEAD ALREADY!! My son is the only thing that matters to me at this point in time.. and I don't really give a shit about the rest of the ppl.. they can fuck off and I don't give a shit if I was to be selfish and to kill myself.. they never took five fucking minutes out of their time to see if I'm okay and to see if I needed a shoulder.. so fuck them and fuck you. I'm tired of all these ppl saying "I'm your friend" guess what.. you aint. I don't have friends b/c if I did.. I wouldn't be stuck in my room on my fucking computer all the fucking time! ARG I'm so fucking pissed off at the world..I would just like some fucking attention for once.. seriously.. I never ever get it.. it would be nice to have it. BLAH I'm done no one is going to read this anyways..