Memories consume
Like opening the wound
And picking me apart again...

You all assume
I'm safe here in my room
Unless I try to start again...

I don't want to be the one the battles always choose
'Cause inside, I realize
That I'm the one confused

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
And say what I don't mean
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How to stay paralyzed by fear of abandonment
How to defer to men in solveable predicaments
How to control someone to be a carbon copy of you
How to have that not work and have them run away from you

How to keep people at arms length and never get too close
How to mistrust the ones who supposedly love the most
How to pretend you're fine and don't ( Read more... )

And today I leave for the grandparents' house. <3<3<3
Five days without Mom. I think she's going to die. ;;
Then again, I might. Damnit. I think we're way too dependant on one another or something. ;;;

Anyway. I'll have my computer up there with me, mostly so I can write. But if I can connect to some good internets, I might be on for little bits and ( Read more... )

But if looks could kill
There's a man there who's marked down as dead
Cause I had my fill
Listen you take your hands from her head
I get so mean around this scene
Hey, baby

Is she really going out with him?
Is she really gonna take him home tonight?
Is she really going out with him?
'Cause if my eyes don't decieve me
There's something going wrong ( Read more... )

Okay, anyone heard of the Trans-Siberian Orchestra? Because... it's amazing. It's like... Beethoven and Mozart with all the instruments you normally see PLUS electric guitars, rockish style, and opera singers gone crazy. And... omg. I'm in love. 8O

...XD

Okay. Seriously. There's this one song that makes me think very morbid thoughts about the AU fic ( Read more... )

Meh... I was at the theater again all day. Pooey. ><
I've been encouraged to draw in my 'own style'. Whatever the hell that means. I guess Mom just wants me to do less fanart. xD; Which, hey... I should get some more designs for future*projects going...
Yeaaaaaaaanyway, lookie~! Meme~!

The Blaze & 20!
The rules are simple. I have a list of 20 Sonic the ( Read more... )

I feel like I haven't posted in ages.
Not much to say really. Our new poetry teacher rocks some major socks, Mrs. Larkin is back. <3
But mainly, I've been thinking about my writing career. Like... I want to start really working to get myself some experience and get myself really exposed. I have a couple plans that may or may not go through. Still ( Read more... )

Because when you look through your works from last year's obsession, you realize that it wasn't a bad idea after all. And because I have nothing better to do besides knitt. ^^

On the twelth day of battle Christmas,
Eggman threw at me...

12 ticking bombs
11 E-series
10 rocket launchers
9 new stages
8 egg hornets
7 Perfect Chaos
6 killer whales
5 EGG ( Read more... )

A thanks to those who replied to my last post. I'm better since then, not as crazy-emo. I still miss them, but... I can actually keep it under control and not break into tears when I read the poster thingy.

I have almost no homework this week, since it's finals next week and all. I've been doing a couple little artistic projects. No biggie.

I titled ( Read more... )

I <3 my Math teacher. She is uber awesome. Ms. Banks is the most sarcastically and humorously evil person I've ever met. She's strict, fair, and OMG SCARY LADY...!

Yeah. She's awesome.

I have English tomorrow! WHEE!

Also. Monologues. They suck. They're hard. But somehow fun. Yeah.

Sadly, I think- in fact, am almost POSITIVE- that Schyler (that's how it ( Read more... )