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One of my sorority sisters lost her husband this weekend, in a snowmobile accident. I had no idea what was going on till I saw all the sisters consoling her on her Facebook wall, and then saw a couple of others saying they couldn't believe that they would never again hear this guy's laughter. I laid there last night, unable to sleep, thinking about how alone she must be - it was just them, no kids other than their dog...she's so far away in CO - I never know what to say to make people feel better, I'm so useless with that stuff.
My dad's best friend has been moved home - his sons are now both with him, and I hope this helps him start to want to fight again, but the vibe I'm getting is that it's just the opposite. So sad.
Tried to talk to my brother about it because he called Sunday evening after spending the day at mom's helping her (she was in a car accident - she's fine, but her new car isn't so new anymore, he's trying to replace the parts to save her money). She had him take a look at things around the outside of the house, and he called me really really upset. Said the place is unsellable right now, it's falling apart. And talked about how old mom is getting.
He's also pissed off at me that I'm putting off any movement forward with my meningioma because I accepted a new job that I start at the end of the month - and I obviously cannot and will not start a new job and then plan on being out for any length of time. He didn't say it outright, but hinted I'm being irresponsible and thoughtless.
I heard back from the other neurologist, who I asked to check the report. She feels it's fine for me to wait and see in 6 months, especially as I'm, in her eyes, asymptomatic. I know it's partially my being a coward, but yeah, not ready to deal with surgery, especially after reading stories of recovery on a support board I check into from time to time. After my last surgery, I'm good with not feeling like shit for weeks on end, and being trapped because I can't drive. Is that short sighted?
Spent most of last night helping both kids with projects, one on Powerpoint, and one on Excel. I've become expert at both at this job, without a doubt. Although what the hell a "TTEST" is, I will never be able to explain...
Been a lot of time with just me and the kids lately - Glenn's had double after double, and no days off. It's a bit weird, feeling like when he worked at the restaurant and was gone at night. It's going to be very strange when Kelsey is not at the house anymore, and living at school. I know she plans on coming home on a regular basis, but it's going to leave a big hole - or maybe I'm just feeling that because we've been hanging out now - now that she's getting ready to leave.
Feeling blue.
My dad's best friend has been moved home - his sons are now both with him, and I hope this helps him start to want to fight again, but the vibe I'm getting is that it's just the opposite. So sad.
Tried to talk to my brother about it because he called Sunday evening after spending the day at mom's helping her (she was in a car accident - she's fine, but her new car isn't so new anymore, he's trying to replace the parts to save her money). She had him take a look at things around the outside of the house, and he called me really really upset. Said the place is unsellable right now, it's falling apart. And talked about how old mom is getting.
He's also pissed off at me that I'm putting off any movement forward with my meningioma because I accepted a new job that I start at the end of the month - and I obviously cannot and will not start a new job and then plan on being out for any length of time. He didn't say it outright, but hinted I'm being irresponsible and thoughtless.
I heard back from the other neurologist, who I asked to check the report. She feels it's fine for me to wait and see in 6 months, especially as I'm, in her eyes, asymptomatic. I know it's partially my being a coward, but yeah, not ready to deal with surgery, especially after reading stories of recovery on a support board I check into from time to time. After my last surgery, I'm good with not feeling like shit for weeks on end, and being trapped because I can't drive. Is that short sighted?
Spent most of last night helping both kids with projects, one on Powerpoint, and one on Excel. I've become expert at both at this job, without a doubt. Although what the hell a "TTEST" is, I will never be able to explain...
Been a lot of time with just me and the kids lately - Glenn's had double after double, and no days off. It's a bit weird, feeling like when he worked at the restaurant and was gone at night. It's going to be very strange when Kelsey is not at the house anymore, and living at school. I know she plans on coming home on a regular basis, but it's going to leave a big hole - or maybe I'm just feeling that because we've been hanging out now - now that she's getting ready to leave.
Feeling blue.