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I just got teary listening to the transformation song from Beauty and the Beast. I don't know what's wrong with me lately, I just feel off. Not that it's unusual for me to get teary at BatB, as it is my favorite, but still. I just feel...out of sorts. Oh BatB...my love for you knows absolutely no bounds. If I could bottle the way that movie makes me feel, and give myself a little dose of that everyday without overwhelming myself, I so would.
I auditioned for Steel Magnolias last night, but really extremely doubt I'll get it. And that's fine. I wasn't all that keen on it anyways. But something weird happened last night, and it's got me sort of worried. I smelled my grandmother.
I know that sounds really really strange, but it's true. And it's not like it's a scent that's very common, at least, not in my life. It's a combination of cigarettes and Halls cough drops. And I recognized it instantly. I know she's been dead for 11 years now...that's why it scared me. The scent only lasted a few moments before it disappeared, but it shook me up. Why now and why at the theater, of all places?
Things are pretty rough around here. I'm bored and getting itchy, my car died yet again, my uncle is continually in the hospital with failing health. He just had surgery tuesday night to have a tumor removed, and he's not doing very well. It's a never ending cycle of hospitalizations, and it's stressful. Not to mention the fact that every time I ask my dad how he's doing, he replies with he's fine, but he's old and lived a long life, and it's been a good life, so it's probably time.
...Thanks dad. I hate that we have such different takes on death. I'm sure some of you remember the debacle of my aunts death. I, after having lived through many a relatives deaths, really don't handle it well. Even at 5 I handled it poorly. My brother and my parents just sort of shrug their shoulders and move on. *sigh* So I think he's trying to soften the eventual blow of my uncles death. Which, fine, I get it. But I'm 23 years old. I understand that he is old and that death happens. Understandng doesn't make it any easier though.
Watched part of The Usual Suspects tonight. If you haven't seen that movie, SEE IT! I looove it. the ending is the best thing ever. But yes, see it.
I hope you're enjoying Parade, those that now have it anyways. I'm off to bed.
I auditioned for Steel Magnolias last night, but really extremely doubt I'll get it. And that's fine. I wasn't all that keen on it anyways. But something weird happened last night, and it's got me sort of worried. I smelled my grandmother.
I know that sounds really really strange, but it's true. And it's not like it's a scent that's very common, at least, not in my life. It's a combination of cigarettes and Halls cough drops. And I recognized it instantly. I know she's been dead for 11 years now...that's why it scared me. The scent only lasted a few moments before it disappeared, but it shook me up. Why now and why at the theater, of all places?
Things are pretty rough around here. I'm bored and getting itchy, my car died yet again, my uncle is continually in the hospital with failing health. He just had surgery tuesday night to have a tumor removed, and he's not doing very well. It's a never ending cycle of hospitalizations, and it's stressful. Not to mention the fact that every time I ask my dad how he's doing, he replies with he's fine, but he's old and lived a long life, and it's been a good life, so it's probably time.
...Thanks dad. I hate that we have such different takes on death. I'm sure some of you remember the debacle of my aunts death. I, after having lived through many a relatives deaths, really don't handle it well. Even at 5 I handled it poorly. My brother and my parents just sort of shrug their shoulders and move on. *sigh* So I think he's trying to soften the eventual blow of my uncles death. Which, fine, I get it. But I'm 23 years old. I understand that he is old and that death happens. Understandng doesn't make it any easier though.
Watched part of The Usual Suspects tonight. If you haven't seen that movie, SEE IT! I looove it. the ending is the best thing ever. But yes, see it.
I hope you're enjoying Parade, those that now have it anyways. I'm off to bed.