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Down to Two

Dec 24, 2004 00:33

A few hours after the run-in with the M'Fashnik demons, Faith and I were again on our own. At the bar, Ms. Finn had been rather cagey about her identity and just what she was doing fighting demons in downtown Las Vegas, but after being informed about Faith's and my backgrounds, Sam became a sight more talkative. I'd heard about the Initiative and ( Read more... )

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wesleys_slayer December 26 2004, 18:01:09 UTC

Hadn't said much as we were going around dropping off the girls. Bethy, I knew I'd see again dancing somewhere. Sam? Fuck, I hoped I didn't see her again since she hadn't figured out I'd slept with her husband yet.

If she had, I would've been in the middle of some fight back at Fremont Street and Wes would get to watch two chicks mud-wrestle. Some fucking fantasy, most likely...

Oh, who the hell was I kidding. I wouldn't know any of Wes' fantasies unless he told me. Which, I was thinking, wasn't gonna happen anytime soon.

Shrugged outta my jacket and lit up a cig once we were back in the relative safe confines of our room, and just sat on the bed. I don't think he got it. He almost died. Almost fucking died, and I couldn't have stopped it. I'd been frozen, or too far away, or something. It was all so hazy and I couldn't figure it out, or remember it right.

"First fight in the new era of our Slayer and Watcher-hood. What did you think?""What did I think?" I repeated as I blew some smoke out, avoiding his eyes and rubbing my legs. " ( ... )

dark_wesley December 26 2004, 23:40:03 UTC

Faith expression was far too shaken and just off at the moment. I was as concerned by that as I could have been by anything she might have said up until now. The smirk faded from my own face as she did speak.

"What did I think? Think I fucked up royally. Think you're taking it far too lightly, everything that happened."

I turned around, ignoring the stab of painful protest from my ribs, clearly aghast at Faith's suggestion.

"Faith, you'll excuse me, but what in the bloody hell are you talking about? There wasn't a single casualty except the demons who we were supposed to kill. I got sloppy, and I'm a little beat up, but that's it."

Shaking my head, I moved a little closer to Faith, my shocked tones softening a bit.

"We really have come a ways if you're chastising me for being too cavalier." I sighed. "Faith, I know that if it had just been us, you would have saved me. I have no doubt."

"And I think I'm glad Sam is gone so she doesn't figure out I slept with her husband. What about you, boss?""You did what ( ... )

wesleys_slayer January 6 2005, 19:23:42 UTC

"I got sloppy, and I'm a little beat up, but that's it."

Sure, that's it. And my name's Buffy-fucking-Summers.

"Faith, I know that if it had just been us, you would have saved me. I have no doubt."

I nodded, finishing up my cig and walking over to the balcony. "Cool, glad one of us is sure of that. Cuz me? Hey, boss, I'm not feeling it." Shit, there were a lot of things I was feeling, but confident in myself and my abilities sure as hell wasn't one of them.

I just stood and watched the waters of the fountain dance below me.

How the fuck was I supposed to do this? I froze. I fucking froze!

"I've no wish to discuss your previous sexual encounters, Faith, any more than I think you'd like to discuss mine."I laughed. You had to, at that one. Yeah, neither of us wanted to talk about sex with the other. Suuuuuuure. I spun around, my arms resting on the railing of the balcony as I eyed Wes getting a drink ( ... )

dark_wesley January 10 2005, 10:27:52 UTC

"Cool, glad one of us is sure of that. Cuz me? Hey, boss, I'm not feeling it."

Faith rose and stepped out onto the balcony. The sounds of the street and the music played for the fountain show rose up and into the room, but my focus was all on my Slayer. Leaning forward, elbows on my knees, I thought over her words, even as I replied to them.

"We're still trying to figure all this out, Faith. You and I have never been a typical Watcher and Slayer, and everything is a dozen times more complicated than before. The trust... it can take time."

The words, I thought, sounded confident and reassuring. But, I wondered, did I really mean it all? Without hesitation, I had complete and utter conviction in Faith's abilities. I knew I could rely on her strength, her speed, and even her own reckless brand of bravery in any confrontation.

But did I trust her ( ... )

wesleys_slayer January 10 2005, 23:31:57 UTC

I think my heart was pounding so fucking loud, all of Vegas must've heard it. Wes just kept staring at me, though, like I was some fucked up puzzle to be figured out or something. Wouldn't say anything to me, and that scared the shit outta me more than any demon we faced tonight.

More than me not being able to be there for him in the fight.

"I can't lie and say that I haven't thought about it, and I can't lie and say that I understand all of the whys and wherefores. But I haven't been avoiding it, at least not consciously."

"Ok," I said, and couldn't think of anything else to really add, since he hadn't fucking given me anything. He'd thought about it? Fuck that! Of course he would, it was me! Anyone would, anyone would think of it, and remember how fucking awesome it was... they wouldShit ( ... )

dark_wesley January 12 2005, 23:31:08 UTC

"Sure, why not?"

I was still observing, still studying Faith for her reactions, the 'tells' and subtle body language that I was still trying to decipher. Even after everything that had happened in the last few days, the young woman was still infuriatingly engimatic at times-- at the most inopportune times, of course.

There were other moments, though, when I believed that I could read Faith like a book, when it was as if I understood her better than anyone else possibly could. I hadn't lied to her that night when I'd described us as being of a kind. But it was the times when I hadn't the slightest idea what she could be thinking that were just as fascinating.

Now, all I could see was something I never thought I'd see from her, at least not ever again. Once more, I was pushed back to that night, when I'd learned there was a vulnerability beneath the bravado... a young woman who could be just as frightened and needing and honest as anyone. That was something I thought I saw now, as Faith's eyes stayed low and dodging.

"Let's ( ... )

wesleys_slayer January 13 2005, 21:33:20 UTC

"Faith, I don't think there was a thing about it that might be considered 'not good enough' by any mark."

Fuck. I wanted to cry, cuz even though he'd said it before? The hurt was just a little bit more... gone now. Every fucking sweet thing he said to me just made it all slowly better. Couldn't tell him that, though. So I just stood there, staring up at him as he stepped even closer to me and then I had to fight to not touch him, to not tell him that he was making it all better.

Fuck, why couldn't he just make it all better?

"I think... I think I know you better, somehow...And I don't mean just because we slept together. I'm talking about really knowing you."

"Really?" Didn't think anyone really knew me, except maybe Angel. Well, even then? Angel didn't know everything. Shit, I wasn't sure I knew the real me. How could Wes be sure?

I wanted it, though. So bad, I wanted him to know me. I think... I think I needed someone to know me.

And to not fucking bolt after they did.

"I think about how much I wanted-- and still want-- to ( ... )

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