how can a day be the worst yet the best?
yesterday i cried for like ever. roi told me about adam and i wanted to die. i didn't even get to say goodbye. if sheena hadn't been here i prolly would have been really dramatic about it. i just cried for a while and then decided crying wont get him out any sooner. and im sure he doesn't want all of us crying over it. it's not like we will never see him again. yet writing this i tear up again because i just can't believe he is gone. its hard. yesterday in school roi was so upset and was like "yay, i graduate today. . . . . but i have to graduate without my best friend even being here" i just had to look away cuz that killed me. i almost cried then but i didn't want him to see me upset about it when i shouldn't care after how he treated me :-/ . i'm so upset right now i can't even think of what im writing. . .
anyways yesterday was also like the best day of my life. i was actually happy and not like fake happy i couldn't stop smiling and. . . it was just great. i pretty much went to work with sheena n nick. they went in at 2 and i got there at like 5:30. and stayed until like 7:30 and then came back again at 9:45ish. first susan (my best friend since like 7th grade) came and got me. and then we went to pick up her mom and back to her house where rob was. then we all went to see sheena and nick. nick took FOREVER to come talk to me (which was kinda cute) then he came over and realized he knew rob (they play baseball together) so things weren't so weird. then we all sat there and talked for a while and they sent nick to go get food so he asked me if i wanted to go with him so i did. then we all sat and talked sum more and me susan and rob left and went to pet co. (yeah i know im a trader but i saw 2 co-workers there haha). then we went to steak n shake and then back to see sheena and nick. then we all just kinda went home. but even though i didn't really see him THAT much i was really happy. just thinking about him makes me smile. i seriously have not smiled this much in a really long time. this is sooo wut i needed. hopefully things just continue to get better with that.
oh yeah and btw my car broke down like the day i last updated :-/ oh well i have the part i need and my grandma decided her and my papa are going to fix me heater core :-D
well im gonna go fer now. im waiting for sheena to call me again. <3
<3
anyways yesterday was also like the best day of my life. i was actually happy and not like fake happy i couldn't stop smiling and. . . it was just great. i pretty much went to work with sheena n nick. they went in at 2 and i got there at like 5:30. and stayed until like 7:30 and then came back again at 9:45ish. first susan (my best friend since like 7th grade) came and got me. and then we went to pick up her mom and back to her house where rob was. then we all went to see sheena and nick. nick took FOREVER to come talk to me (which was kinda cute) then he came over and realized he knew rob (they play baseball together) so things weren't so weird. then we all sat there and talked for a while and they sent nick to go get food so he asked me if i wanted to go with him so i did. then we all sat and talked sum more and me susan and rob left and went to pet co. (yeah i know im a trader but i saw 2 co-workers there haha). then we went to steak n shake and then back to see sheena and nick. then we all just kinda went home. but even though i didn't really see him THAT much i was really happy. just thinking about him makes me smile. i seriously have not smiled this much in a really long time. this is sooo wut i needed. hopefully things just continue to get better with that.
oh yeah and btw my car broke down like the day i last updated :-/ oh well i have the part i need and my grandma decided her and my papa are going to fix me heater core :-D
well im gonna go fer now. im waiting for sheena to call me again. <3
<3