I'm becoming more and more depressed with every passing week. The rain and lack of progress in daily life are taking their toll on my mental state. My job isn't going anywhere and neither are my education or social life or the love life for that matter. I don't find pleasure in the things I once did, everything seems so stupid and not worth putting ( Read more... )

Maybe its time to pick up the digital pen and start using this thing yet again. I doubt people will read this so. You know I'll write all sorts of shit in here. I'll actually write something more interesting when the urge moves me.

I want to kill my father he is getting more an more annoying everyday... Like today he woke me up to vaccum and empty the dishwasher while he laid in bed. I want him dead almost as much as I do my inner thoughts. Thank God this is his last day off and then I can rest easy and not have to listen to him bark out orders and ram Air Force bullshit down ( Read more... )

My family is pushing me into this stupid fucking life ruining mistake known as the air force, everyday my dad brings it up and I hate myself for going along with this for as long as I have. My heart will never fully be in this, it goes against everything I stand for. I dont know how I could join something I'm not even in support of and fight for a ( Read more... )

Currently my sister is making fucking tons of food upstairs and all of it is in the toaster oven. All I want is a bagel but she has to cook fucking chicken cutlets. First off who eats chicken cutlets for breakfast? Thats really weird of her. Shes gonna eat all the food, that bitch she was already eatting a bagel. And the last one still better be up ( Read more... )

If my life gets anymore outrageously action packed I just might overload. I've been sitting here at my house of a mind numbing 13 hours. I did have plans to leave until the snow moved in and ruined it all. This is was totally unexpected, it was so beautiful outside yesterday and now its all but a distant memory. I'm slowly losing the will to open ( Read more... )

I feel so alone as of late, like a huge part of me is missing in the uncertainty of the next couple weeks. I have really given up the life I once was so content with for drastic change the type that molds you into a new person and betters situations. Maybe this is a blessing maybe it will be my curse. I'm not far enough in to really realize yet. I ( Read more... )

Last night I got completely wasted and most likely made a fool of myself.

A couple days ago someone who shall remain nameless called my house telling me I was a dead man. Now this sorta got me nervous for about 2 seconds then I realized I dont fucking care. I'm ready to die, I hope we meet sometime in the near future so we can go toe to toe and blow for blow. I dont know weither I can win or not but I'll try my best, if ( Read more... )

well I'm officially homeless now, its not that bad minus having no money to do anything with. I've been sleeping on the couch in my friends basement, it sure beats my car let me tell you. I spent a total of five hours today thinking about my situation. It has two possible outcomes Military or Factory Work. What a choice, I also decided on getting a ( Read more... )