a rant
I've spent my whole pregnancy being very careful what I complain about. I lost my last two pregnancies and the fact that I am sitting here at nearly 37 weeks is amazing and an honor, so I do take time to be thankful for where I'm at.
But I am miserable.
I've been in pre-labor for a week now, it's driving me insane. If I hadn't noticed that I was in pre-labor I think this would be a lot easier, but I am VERY aware of my body changing right now.
I am on 150mg of Zantac every day, I have been for a while now. Now I have to take it twice a day and that BARELY cuts it. I constantly feel like there is something creeping up my throat. I have that slow burn at the top of my chest all the time. I'm 80% effaced, this baby has most definitely dropped, yet still my heartburn seems to get worse by the day.
I cramp, a lot. It's very much like period cramps, and they come and go and come and go and come and go all day every day. I have a dull constant ache at the bottom of my pelvis, both the bone and the muscles. I have SPD, I was wearing a belt before, now that the kid dropped though the belt does nothing but make me even more uncomfortable, so I've given up on it (anyone need one? pay for shipping and it's yours).
I have contractions all day. Some painless, others really not. Some small some big, sometimes they pick up but they always end up slowing back down just enough to make me feel like I might be getting somewhere and then making me feel like a fool.
I have a UTI, I've been on suppressant antibiotics for most of this pregnancy, but once I hit third trimester they switched me....to one that my UTIs are resistant to. So now I have one but there is nothing they can do because the one pill I do respond to causes complications when taken right before birth and since I'm 1.5cm dilated that could be any time now. It's not too bad right now but very annoying.
In short, I am drained, and losing my patience.
Someone tell me it ends soon and that I won't be stuck like this forever. I know it will all be worth it once I hold my little girl in my arms, but I really feel like I want this to be over NOW. I have no idea how I'll take it if I go all the way to my due date or beyond.
ETA: I ITCH! I break out in hives in spurts, they go away and then come back.
Note: Thank you so much to everyone in the community, you guys have been AWESOME through this and helped me so much to not have an emotional break down. Had an appointment today (monday) and found I progressed to 2cm. So all this discomfort is at least doing something!
But I am miserable.
I've been in pre-labor for a week now, it's driving me insane. If I hadn't noticed that I was in pre-labor I think this would be a lot easier, but I am VERY aware of my body changing right now.
I am on 150mg of Zantac every day, I have been for a while now. Now I have to take it twice a day and that BARELY cuts it. I constantly feel like there is something creeping up my throat. I have that slow burn at the top of my chest all the time. I'm 80% effaced, this baby has most definitely dropped, yet still my heartburn seems to get worse by the day.
I cramp, a lot. It's very much like period cramps, and they come and go and come and go and come and go all day every day. I have a dull constant ache at the bottom of my pelvis, both the bone and the muscles. I have SPD, I was wearing a belt before, now that the kid dropped though the belt does nothing but make me even more uncomfortable, so I've given up on it (anyone need one? pay for shipping and it's yours).
I have contractions all day. Some painless, others really not. Some small some big, sometimes they pick up but they always end up slowing back down just enough to make me feel like I might be getting somewhere and then making me feel like a fool.
I have a UTI, I've been on suppressant antibiotics for most of this pregnancy, but once I hit third trimester they switched me....to one that my UTIs are resistant to. So now I have one but there is nothing they can do because the one pill I do respond to causes complications when taken right before birth and since I'm 1.5cm dilated that could be any time now. It's not too bad right now but very annoying.
In short, I am drained, and losing my patience.
Someone tell me it ends soon and that I won't be stuck like this forever. I know it will all be worth it once I hold my little girl in my arms, but I really feel like I want this to be over NOW. I have no idea how I'll take it if I go all the way to my due date or beyond.
ETA: I ITCH! I break out in hives in spurts, they go away and then come back.
Note: Thank you so much to everyone in the community, you guys have been AWESOME through this and helped me so much to not have an emotional break down. Had an appointment today (monday) and found I progressed to 2cm. So all this discomfort is at least doing something!