39 weeks and worried now.
I had my 39 week prenatal yesterday and my blood pressure has moved up to the 140/90 range.
We had taken steps so I am no longer working - and in generally I have been getting lots of sleep and am no longer snapping at the 7 year old for talking... as much.
However there is now the increase in financial worries (like for some reason our rental company didn't cash our January rent check till April 1st and since I wasn't paying close enough attention in Febuary -I thought I had enough money to cover the copay and such for my pregnancy I paid it all - which meant our April rent check bounced. And I am not sure with me not working - where we are going to make up the 700 dollars deficiency. Also I have always had depression issues when I spend a great deal of time alone. Just the way I am - I like being around people when I am alone - I get bored - and Really I am reading upwards of 3 500 page novels a day. We don't have TV, and my partner doesn't call on lunch because he is so busy at work. So I end up sinking into a fairly major depression that I try to fight.
And now I am told that if my blood pressure stays up that High - I am high risk which means I can't have the waterbirth I so much want and have paid for. I haven't been really able to stop crying today. I am terrified because I have never had good experiances with hospitals and drs. I am around 300lbs - something must be wrong with me. (No I am just lazy and like to eat, but I try to eat good choices so my cholestral and bloodsugar are good) generally I have good blood pressure - but the last month and a half it has just been climbing. Which may have more todo with the fact that I am full term pregnant and my body is dealing with more than it noramally does on its own. But I have energy, I enjoy going out and doing things -I camp I hike I swim. I just like my candy and sugar. I like to sit around with friends and roleplay or game I enjoy curling up with a good book and I work in the computer tech field where I sit at a computer all day and just talk on the phone. I am not fond of sweating or working out. It just doesn't interest me. makes me feel tired sore achy and generally yucky - so I don't do it.
But right now I am scared - I had such a good easy pregnancy thus far. - no morning sickness to speak about - only minor heartburn and that is when I eat spicy or drink more than a soda a day. Yes now that I am at 39 weeks It hurts to walk around - It feels like there is bowling ball between my hips and there is a heavy weight on my tummy - but you know what -I kinda expect that at this point.
I am terrified I won't be able to find a way to bring my blood pressure down, and that I will have to go to the hospital to have my baby -and the doctors will insist on induction and a csection - because of the fact that I am a big gal, and there is sooooo many dangers.
:cry:
We had taken steps so I am no longer working - and in generally I have been getting lots of sleep and am no longer snapping at the 7 year old for talking... as much.
However there is now the increase in financial worries (like for some reason our rental company didn't cash our January rent check till April 1st and since I wasn't paying close enough attention in Febuary -I thought I had enough money to cover the copay and such for my pregnancy I paid it all - which meant our April rent check bounced. And I am not sure with me not working - where we are going to make up the 700 dollars deficiency. Also I have always had depression issues when I spend a great deal of time alone. Just the way I am - I like being around people when I am alone - I get bored - and Really I am reading upwards of 3 500 page novels a day. We don't have TV, and my partner doesn't call on lunch because he is so busy at work. So I end up sinking into a fairly major depression that I try to fight.
And now I am told that if my blood pressure stays up that High - I am high risk which means I can't have the waterbirth I so much want and have paid for. I haven't been really able to stop crying today. I am terrified because I have never had good experiances with hospitals and drs. I am around 300lbs - something must be wrong with me. (No I am just lazy and like to eat, but I try to eat good choices so my cholestral and bloodsugar are good) generally I have good blood pressure - but the last month and a half it has just been climbing. Which may have more todo with the fact that I am full term pregnant and my body is dealing with more than it noramally does on its own. But I have energy, I enjoy going out and doing things -I camp I hike I swim. I just like my candy and sugar. I like to sit around with friends and roleplay or game I enjoy curling up with a good book and I work in the computer tech field where I sit at a computer all day and just talk on the phone. I am not fond of sweating or working out. It just doesn't interest me. makes me feel tired sore achy and generally yucky - so I don't do it.
But right now I am scared - I had such a good easy pregnancy thus far. - no morning sickness to speak about - only minor heartburn and that is when I eat spicy or drink more than a soda a day. Yes now that I am at 39 weeks It hurts to walk around - It feels like there is bowling ball between my hips and there is a heavy weight on my tummy - but you know what -I kinda expect that at this point.
I am terrified I won't be able to find a way to bring my blood pressure down, and that I will have to go to the hospital to have my baby -and the doctors will insist on induction and a csection - because of the fact that I am a big gal, and there is sooooo many dangers.
:cry: