An Absloute Mess

[lunagypsy]

I have waited all day for my doctor's office to call with the newest set of quant level results. Finally, at nearly 5:30pm, they did, and it wasn't quite what I was hoping to hear. Really, it wasn't what I wanted to hear at all, as far as I am concerned

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[lunagypsy]

I don't worry that I have done anything "wrong," and I imagine that would be the reason most women would "blame themselves" for losing a baby. I was warned ahead of time that if I ever did conceive, it may not "stick," due to my medical condition(s). You see, I have PCOS, and also a one-inch fibroid in my uterus, on top of other things. I was on Yasmin, and my system is so messed up die to the uncontrollable PCOS, that I got pregnant without any notion that I would (my obgyn said it can happen, but I would more likely need help from Metformin just to conceive.) I'm 32, and my body has been causing me pain due to the PCOS since I was 14. When I called my drs office initially to repot I had just done a positive HPT, they set up various appointments and had me keep them on speed-dial because they said the PCOS and fibroid were a cause to believe I was a high-risk pregnancy, and that the fibroid could "get in the way" and kick the embryo out, so therefore, if that is what happens, I really have nothing else in me to believe but that it is all my body's fault. I'd like to believe it's not, but one of our best friends had 3 or 4 consecutive mcs due just to her PCOS:(