Found the perfect song that totally helps me to deal with losing Brad. It's by the Red Jumpsuit Apparatus and it's called " Your Guardian Angel". Every lyric is perfect. Every note is a true reflection of what Brad was. In case you're interested here are the lyrics ( Read more... )

I have not posted in an insanely long time, but I really need to get something off my chest. I never deal with emotions right...in fact I usually just ignore them until they become unbareable. And that's what's happened...the pain is too unbareable to deal with and now I really just need to have a good cry. But I'm crying over something that ( Read more... )

I've been hiding a lot of things lately...feelings mostly I guess. I figured by not dealing with them maybe somehow they would just disappear. But as always they came back to haunt me and what started out as a fun night, turned into a whirlwind of bad feelings rushing back to me at once. The most frustrating part is, I can't articulate what these ( Read more... )

Lately I've been waking up refreshed from the medication that I've been taking which has been aiding my sleep. But the more it works, and the more my parents comment on "how much we like you when you are on this drug" the more depressed I become. I feel like they only like me when I'm medicated. It's so unnerving. My mom says they don't mean it ( Read more... )

What's gone and left me is all I've ever loved, all I've ever felt and all I've ever showed. What's gone and left me, left an empty hole, but nobody sees it, except me. What's gone and left me has made me cry, but nobody recognizes it, nobody stops to ever see. Inside I am decrepid. I am alive, but a mess. I've never felt so alone in my life. Maybe ( Read more... )

So I know I haven't posted in a disgustingly long time, but here I am. I haven't disappeared or fallen off the face of the earth....SURPRISE! Let me update you all on what's been happening up here at Nip-U.

I went white water rafting which was stellar. I'm talkin sooo much fun. I dislocated my shoulder which was a minor issue and it still hurts, ( Read more... )

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YAY! Erin got into Nip U for BA Honours! That means we might get to go to school together! Omfg I'm sooo excited! I love you Erin CONGRATS!

Allycia is going to Western!Erin is coming to Nip! Everyone wins! My life is saved lol!

l8r g8rs

I sat sullenly staring at the small envelope that jumped out of the large stack of mail. It said "Ryerson University". All at once I knew what was in this envelope and a feeling of incontrollable doom loomed over me. The word 'rejected' came to mind. I opened the letter only to have my worst fears confirmed. I had been rejected by Ryerson for ECE. ( Read more... )

Shakespeare once said "Whats in a name? " However my best friend Brad and I feel a name(especially for a child) is very important. Recently we got in a heated debate about names. As you know Brad and I have been dating on and off for years. He thinks we'll get married so as a gift to him I have decided to list Brad and I's full names, and our top 5 ( Read more... )