bear trap.
HE: whats it like to pretend to still love someone?
SHE: i think you may want to ask yourself that question
HE: i wish i never met you
SHE: i wish you never met me to, only because i wish you never had to feel such hatred towards another person, i mean.. to really wish you never met them. i wish you never had to feel so negative about another person.
HE: i dont love you i dont think i ever did
SHE: thats not news to me. the first morning i woke up next to you i knew that i could never look at the world the same after looking at it laying next to you, and with that, i knew i could never ever dream of being your world, but that morning you became mine.
HE: you lie! and i dont trust you, i dont want to marry you. i dont ever want to fucking marry you!
SHE: it breaks my heart to have to see us live at such odds. im sorry you feel this way and im sorry that i cant spend one more minute of my life trying to convince you that i love you. i have spent the last four years struggling with this, with you, none of my words can change what is already set in stone in your heart...
there was a long pause between them. one that held years of passion and hatred, jealousy and clarity, anger and frustration. the silence bottled it up and it exploded with her tears, his fists, the beer bottles, the cigarettes, the sidewalk, with the windows in the house back home and she couldnt help but want to fall on the floor and curl into a ball, sleep and never wake up again because she knew he wouldnt be there to wish her a good morning anymore. she knew he wouldnt be sitting next to her at the bar, wouldnt hold her face in his hands and swear he couldnt breathe without her. the love she had shaped herself around was walking out the front door, and words escaped her.
HE: lets stop living this lie... i dont want to feel this way anymore! i hate it, i hate this! im bored and im done with you.. your right maybe i am the one who doesnt love YOU! cause i can tell by the look in your eyes that you still love me, tears or no tears, words or no words, i know you well enough, and im breaking your heart right now.
SHE: observant and accurate, anything more you want to torture me with? maybe a few more accusations, or maybe confessions?
HE: your unbelievable and pathetic and i dont know why i was ever with you, fuck you.
SHE: well i think your lazy and worthless so well call it even?
HE: ive supported you and helped you but im worthless ok! get a real job!
SHE: you haven't done anything for me but drive me FUCKING INSANE!!!! you ruined me, everything you loved about me when we met you took from me. so take it all... all of my good and walk away with it, i dont want it back, but i loved you, ive always loved you and ill be god dammed if i let anyone ESPECIALLY YOU try to manipulate me into feeling like i havent. you are the craziest person ive ever met, you had it all and you never even noticed! and you let your fucking HEAD mess everything up! dont you see?!?! its ALL in your head!
HE: im not crazy! im right! your a whore thats all youve ever been to me just another bitch.. like the rest..
he smirked as if hed just won some epic battle, satisfied with the damage hed done, written all over her face, her body posture.
SHE: ok i give up when you realize the truth this time, i wont answer the phone so dont even bother.
HE: i wouldnt dream of it
SHE: we used to be so strong so put together, so solid now look at us, look at this mess weve made of it... ill never get over this.
HE:(laughing) i already have.
he turned to walk away and with no hesitation he was gone. she was alone and undone. still trapped in love. faceless in the crowd.
SHE: i think you may want to ask yourself that question
HE: i wish i never met you
SHE: i wish you never met me to, only because i wish you never had to feel such hatred towards another person, i mean.. to really wish you never met them. i wish you never had to feel so negative about another person.
HE: i dont love you i dont think i ever did
SHE: thats not news to me. the first morning i woke up next to you i knew that i could never look at the world the same after looking at it laying next to you, and with that, i knew i could never ever dream of being your world, but that morning you became mine.
HE: you lie! and i dont trust you, i dont want to marry you. i dont ever want to fucking marry you!
SHE: it breaks my heart to have to see us live at such odds. im sorry you feel this way and im sorry that i cant spend one more minute of my life trying to convince you that i love you. i have spent the last four years struggling with this, with you, none of my words can change what is already set in stone in your heart...
there was a long pause between them. one that held years of passion and hatred, jealousy and clarity, anger and frustration. the silence bottled it up and it exploded with her tears, his fists, the beer bottles, the cigarettes, the sidewalk, with the windows in the house back home and she couldnt help but want to fall on the floor and curl into a ball, sleep and never wake up again because she knew he wouldnt be there to wish her a good morning anymore. she knew he wouldnt be sitting next to her at the bar, wouldnt hold her face in his hands and swear he couldnt breathe without her. the love she had shaped herself around was walking out the front door, and words escaped her.
HE: lets stop living this lie... i dont want to feel this way anymore! i hate it, i hate this! im bored and im done with you.. your right maybe i am the one who doesnt love YOU! cause i can tell by the look in your eyes that you still love me, tears or no tears, words or no words, i know you well enough, and im breaking your heart right now.
SHE: observant and accurate, anything more you want to torture me with? maybe a few more accusations, or maybe confessions?
HE: your unbelievable and pathetic and i dont know why i was ever with you, fuck you.
SHE: well i think your lazy and worthless so well call it even?
HE: ive supported you and helped you but im worthless ok! get a real job!
SHE: you haven't done anything for me but drive me FUCKING INSANE!!!! you ruined me, everything you loved about me when we met you took from me. so take it all... all of my good and walk away with it, i dont want it back, but i loved you, ive always loved you and ill be god dammed if i let anyone ESPECIALLY YOU try to manipulate me into feeling like i havent. you are the craziest person ive ever met, you had it all and you never even noticed! and you let your fucking HEAD mess everything up! dont you see?!?! its ALL in your head!
HE: im not crazy! im right! your a whore thats all youve ever been to me just another bitch.. like the rest..
he smirked as if hed just won some epic battle, satisfied with the damage hed done, written all over her face, her body posture.
SHE: ok i give up when you realize the truth this time, i wont answer the phone so dont even bother.
HE: i wouldnt dream of it
SHE: we used to be so strong so put together, so solid now look at us, look at this mess weve made of it... ill never get over this.
HE:(laughing) i already have.
he turned to walk away and with no hesitation he was gone. she was alone and undone. still trapped in love. faceless in the crowd.