Day Two.
It’s really sad to think about breaking up with Sam, but I feel way better than yesterday. When I went to sleep last night, where I usually think about Sam, I realized that the man God has for me, Sam or no, is going to be way better than right now, way better than I can ever imagine.
Carissa, someone I told Sam about and he lectured me not to be so judgemental, who has turned out to be a kind of friend of mine, asked how my weekend was and realized upon seeing my expression that I had broken up with him.
I haven’t yet, that’s why I feel weird… I feel like we’re just prolonging the inevitable.
I want to be friends after this… cuz I love him so much… but I guess it’s different from other break ups because I’m not actually dumping him… we’re separating because we feel convicted to do so. I wanna tell him to let me know when he grows up. Not in a mean way.
I don’t want to be in this relationship right now, and I don’t think either one of us will grow that way. We just need to forget about each other. For a long time. And focus on our own issues.
For me, I need to learn to love my family in an obvious way all the time. And I also need to learn how to trust and not get selfishly jealous all the time.
I’ll tell him if he needs me I’m a text or call away…
Carissa, someone I told Sam about and he lectured me not to be so judgemental, who has turned out to be a kind of friend of mine, asked how my weekend was and realized upon seeing my expression that I had broken up with him.
I haven’t yet, that’s why I feel weird… I feel like we’re just prolonging the inevitable.
I want to be friends after this… cuz I love him so much… but I guess it’s different from other break ups because I’m not actually dumping him… we’re separating because we feel convicted to do so. I wanna tell him to let me know when he grows up. Not in a mean way.
I don’t want to be in this relationship right now, and I don’t think either one of us will grow that way. We just need to forget about each other. For a long time. And focus on our own issues.
For me, I need to learn to love my family in an obvious way all the time. And I also need to learn how to trust and not get selfishly jealous all the time.
I’ll tell him if he needs me I’m a text or call away…